stern63’s Profile

About Me

I am German, living in the US since 5 years, married with 2 Teenagers.I was working as a nurse in Germany, now since 5 years I don`t work.Please excuse my spelling, my english writing is not that good. I have had Depressive Phases( I don`t know if I have only Phases, if it is Depression or something else) since when I was 12. I attempted suicide 3 times , in my teens.I started to have Panik Attacks in my30`ies. I don`t know what my Diagnosis really would be. I was reading all kind of selfhelp books. My own Diagnosis so far would be, that I have depressive Phases, or Depression, Panic Attacks, or I am just shy have no selfconfidence, or somekind of social phobia. When I was a teenager I was for a while in a hospital and received psychotherapie, but I didn`t feel comfortable and I didn`t say what really was bathering me.I always felt like I have to hide it. Because I didn`t wanted to be anyhow mentaly sick , I never talked about the stuff inside(not to any Psychiatrists).I didn`t wanted to take any medication either. I wanted to figure things out on my own.For me it is hard to find someone to open up and talk to.Or I sit there and feel like I don`t know what to say.

Interests

Photography, Music, Traveling to Germany when I can afford it, Hiking.