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I don't know why but the past few days have been filled with memories of my ex-boyfriend when things were good. Why do I still miss this man? He ruined my life and after a year I still haven't been able to recover. Maybe beacause this year he has been periodically tormenting me. It's like he has a radar that goes off just as I'm starting to forget him and he reacts. It hasn't happened in a while though and now I'm thinking of him. I don't know why. He doesn't deserve it. I just can't get over him. It scares me to think that I will never trust another man again and my idea of having a loving husband, kids, etc. are ruined (thanks to him)...He hurt me so much I don't want to take that risk again. I sound pitiful....
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No hon, you don't so und pitiful. I can understand your fear. But trust me, one day, you will be able to trust and love again. It just might take time. You are right. He isn't worth your tears and he isn't worth your thoughts. It is likely that he is checking up on you because he is hurting too- but he wants you to believe that he is happy. You are so much better than this and than he is. You will get through this, because you are a strong, beautiful, independant woman. Say that to yourself. Strong. Independant. Beautiful. You are capable of loving again. Write it on the mirror in red lipstick if necessary. Don't let yourself fall into his trap. Hold your head up high and proud. You are a good person and I believe in you.
shoegirl
Patience! You can't expect to rid something of your mind and soul that has been deeply imbedded for over a year. Every aspect of a relationship is intimate,and personal and full of good memories,why let that fade. You had a wonderful relationship and I am sure new and exciting experiences,in time you will take thoes that you liked and disliked and move on. Its ok to be sad!!! Let it out and it will get esier with time!
moonea