Journal Entry for July 19, 2008
July 19, 2008 7:28pm
i ate too much and i was sick.
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Goal End Date is May 15, 08 72 days ago.
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Ailie21
is feeling Good
my baby gets hiccups now!! awwww
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About Me
A man found an eagles nest and put it in a nest of a barnyard hen. The eaglet hatched with the brood of chicks and grew up with them. All his life the eagle did what the barnyard chicks did, thinking he was a barnyard chicken. He scratched the earth for worms and insects. He clucked and cackled. And he would thrash his wings and fly a few feet into the air. Years passed and the eagle grew very old. One day he saw a magnificent bird above him in the cloudless sky. It glided in graceful majesty among the powerful wind currents, with scarcely a beat of it's strong golden wings. The old eagle looked up in awe. "Who's that?" he asked. "That's the eagle, the king of the birds, " said his neighbour. "He belongs to the sky. We belong to the earth-we're chickens" So the eagle lived and died a chicken, for that's what he thought he was. Anthony De Mello - Question things, be aware of who you are and what you could achieve if you just took the step and tried. Failure is just an opinion
Interests
Music.reading.serial killers.psychology.theatre.tattoos.film.photography.art.skinny girls.bizarre magazine.crosswords.my boyfriend.my pets.walking.
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Journal Entry for July 15, 2008
July 15, 2008 6:34am
What would you think if I sang out of tune,Would you stand up and walk out on me?Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a songAnd I'll try not …
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Journal Entry for July 6, 2008
July 6, 2008 12:57pm
Feeling a bit better considering the aggro from over the weekend from him.I had a long chat with my mum and brother and they are being so supportive …
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*hic* must be all that good loving its getting from its mumma :) we havent moved just yet but it will be soon yippee can go cow tipping lol and tractor racing yeehaw to country living :P tom and lily are going trouble in bubbles great..oh lordy the fights that are going on at the moment..makes me feel like i'm at a wrestling comp ..in one corner we have limbs ripping lily who has learnt how to pull hair and pull fingers and in the other corner we have tornado tom who just goes and belly flops onto everything and anyone lol..nah they are doing great things so i shouldnt whinge lol luv ya hun hope all is well in the world of Ailie! shit i forgot to tell you i told a friend how you spell your name and she is going to steal it for her unborn bub lol your famous teeheehee..hope you dont mind cause she really loves it! i shall post a pic when bub comes out! xoxshellyxox
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awhhhh baby hiccups! how cute and exciting! hehe! hope yr getting some sleep now! yeh I'm okay, got a lot going on in my mind at the moment, tryna get it straight, seeing my nurse tomorrow so hopefully will help!! take care hun, and I shall update you! and you update me, if you ever need a chat I'm here! baby stuff is soo exciting, big hugs xxx
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Hope you're doing OK and know I am here for you.
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hey lady, hows it going? see yr feeling bad, what up? or you just having a bad day? heres some hugs to try cheer you up, if you need to talk I'm here, hugs xxx
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helloo pretty mumma how you going today?
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Support Groups
Close Alcoholism
I didn't realise drinking was causing a lot of emotional and physical damage to myself until early 07. I would binge drink on roughly 5 days out the 7 and spend 2 days sobbing through anxiety and sleepless nights. Not to mention i was utterly uncontrollable on alcohol and ended up in situations that so nearly lost me my life.At the present i've been sober the longest time in my history of drinking and focusing on bringing a healthy baby into the world. Thats where i get my will power from.
Treatments
- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- I said enough is enough after one particularly humiliating bender and i havent been back since.
- Librium Working / Worked
- They certainly reduced anxiety levels. I didn't suffer any side effects.
- Outpatient Treatment Program Somewhat Helpful
- Ok.. i registered with the addiction services and was appointed a support worker and psychiatrist at the hospital but i gave up on both preffering to do it on my own.At the time,i knew they were trying to help but i was still drinking and missing appointments etc.
- Willpower Working / Worked
- This seems to be working .. after my last hospital trip i consciously vowed never to feel that bad again.
Close Eating Disorders
Type: BulimiaHaving had problems with restricting and obsessive excercise in high school and being very thin i was severly depressed when people started to comment on a little weight gain. I really couldn't control the amount i was eating but found i didnt feel so awful if i threw it back up. So on a daily basis i would binge/purge but became more depressed and gained more weight.I still slip up now and again but because of the baby i force myself to eat and keep it down. Even if its chocolate!
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- I didn't give the psychiatrist a chance as i found my memories were so bad and hated having to revert back to early childhood etc. Still.. i would like to one day know why food/body image has always been such a problem for me.
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- I hate anyone in my family even mentioning bulimia. I immediately tense up and become very agitated.
Open Self-Injury
This problem started when i was quite young. Maybe around 13. Mixed in with an alcohol problem later on the cuts became deeper and more dangerous resulting in hospital trips and a lot of skin damage.I havent actually done anything recently but it was a total of 6 years that i did cut.There was a period between 16-18 that for some reason i didn't do it.I've yet to pin point that exact reason.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- Same as drink and ed.
- Squeezing Ice Considering
- I was advised to do this and i just laughed it off. So i never tried it
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Sometimes it helped but only if i was in the mood to discuss it.
- Tattoos Working / Worked
- Def helped me a good few times! If you like tattoos then this is a must! Sitting for 4 hours of needle work and you def do not feel like causing any more pain to yourself. Plus they heal in the same itchy sort of way. But i'm lucky since i have a friend who tattoos. Otherwise this would be pretty expensive!
Open Depression
Treatments
- Celexa Not Working
- Was crap
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- Really hope this works
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- I enjoy writing but live a chaotic life and can never stick to it
Open Food Addiction
I've been bulimic for over a year now.I just wish that i wasn't but im addicted
Open Pregnancy
Ailie21 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Breakups & Divorce
It seemed to stop working but i'm having his baby. I'm so sad every day . I know he's moved on .. im trying the same but it just doesnt feel right . Sometimes i just feel like giving up.
Treatments
- Leave Not Working
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