Journal Entry for January 26, 2008
January 26, 2008 10:03pm
Not much going on...
Recently have been reconnecting with people from my past. Saw a guy I once cooked with at a local cafe. Then was …
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About Me
Up until recently I was a student (if I'm allowed to return in the fall, it will be a miracle), in the hospitality field. Right now, I'm a temp clerk for the NYC Administration for Children's Services. Low pay & no insurance...yay. My divorce was final last July, after a near 2 year separation. Last Sunday I had a boyfriend, today, his birthday (July 22, 2008) I don't. I have one daughter, a teenager, who no longer lives with me, as she is attending school in another city. She's a typical teenager--pretty, materialistic, and nasty to her mother. :)
Interests
I once loved to bake (trying to love it again), got a degree, and became a cook. I love to read, knit and *love* movies. Until we broke up...my boyfriend interested me a lot :-D
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the boyfriend at breakfast on a Sunday. Turns out two guys I went to culinary school with work there.…
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Journal Entry for January 12, 2008
January 12, 2008 8:54pm
OMG...cry me a river. Is it stupid of me to think that's it's ridiculous that I am home *again* on a Saturday night? I am not one …
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Journal Entry for December 14, 2007
December 14, 2007 10:24pm
I wouldn't mind being home on a Friday night if I had someone to spend it with me. I don't know why I care, because I should be doing …
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Journal Entry for November 14, 2007
November 14, 2007 9:23am
I'm a coward. I left my job (I know I'm crazy...but not really. If you only knew the details...) and finally told my …
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Journal Entry for September 28, 2007
September 28, 2007 11:07am
Haven't been on lately...
Isn't it funny how one can feel terrible, even when good things are going on...? I have a job, (for the most …
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Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depressioni've been depressed probably since i was a child. it was always there, but it becomes a major problem during turning points in my life. i have no friends & don't know how to *be* when it looks like there's a possibility that i may make some. my husband left me, because i couldn't be there for him when he needed me. if something happened to me, it would take longer than a week to find out i was dead. i take medication now after having been hospitalized for a week and a half in early Sept. 2006.
Treatments
- Lithium Too Soon to Tell
- !! Started it a few weeks ago. Makes me sick, don't sleep right, ridiculously dizzy. Working? Mmm, not sure. Meh* If it makes me fat, I will stop it. No, don't care if I'm shallow =)
- Wellbutrin Somewhat Helpful
- o.k. most of the time--still have bouts of depression. Update: seems to be working, but p-doc thinks it's making me aggressive and manic. But I have a sex drive...hooray!
Close Healthy Sex
My husband & I stopped having sex 6 mos. before our separation. The stresses of his life made his prostatitis worsen (and his grandad & dad both have prostate cancer) and that made it physically impossible to have sex. The RX was too $$$ & then we were separated. Just recently got into a sexual relationship, after 2 yrs. & realizing that my husband wasn't coming back. The sex is fine, but the relationship part...
Treatments
- Wellbutrin Somewhat Helpful
- Good & bad. Still have a sex drive (and on higher dosage, felt *very* driven. then again, i've always been sort of "Yes!! Sex!!"
Open Bipolar Disorder
My pdoc would like for me to go on Lithium. I've resisted for 6 mos. at least. I am on Wellbutrin for the time being. I believe that she considers me *soft* bipolar, or BPII. Who knows?
Treatments
- Wellbutrin Somewhat Helpful
- I feel okay most of the time. Things still make me sad often though, and a certain "time of the month" makes me nearly incoherent.
Open College Stress
Decided to go back to school for the 2nd time as an adult...and I think it might've been a mistake, but I'm so far into the committment, I don't know what to do now. I am terrified and doing this gives me more anxiety than anything else in my life.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- When I go to my therapist (just recently have been able to return...was without one for over 6 months, and with a psychiatrist who I thinks likes to just medicate me, not caring about the underlying problem) we talk about my problems, but I don't feel as if I'm resolving anything, and the problems just continue.
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