is feeling OK
a post menopausal woman on a rampage with an attitude, bad haircut, 5, 000 extra pounds on her hips, who needs DBT in the worst way but has no job, no life and absolutely no hope. depression just doesn't seem to really describe where i am right now. i don't think there is a word for the state i am in. where life is night wild with need and this world a thing of want, time is a steel skin, rusting swiftly I'M RUNNING OUT OF TIME HERE PEOPLE- to have a life, to have a future, to have hope. P.S. by the way....who the hell put that stupid smiley face up there?????? I AM NOT OK!!!!!! I'M FREAKING FURIOUS THAT I AM SO INCAPABLE OF HAVING JUST ONE POSITIVE THOUGHT!!! WASTING MY LIFE!!!! ACCEPTING ABUSE!!!! AND FEELING SO DAMN GUILTY OVER EVERYTHING!!!!!!
poetry, gatherings, wheat pennies, power animals, acapella choirs, bodhrans, pebbles smoothed by the sea, violets, pansies, matriarchal societies, elephants, red shoes, puddles, aspens in the fall, dogwoods in the spring, shamen, falcons, hawks, Penn State football, Beethovan, Ella Fitzgerald, Michael Kamen, marching bands, barbershop quartets, parades, and being the reigning queen of this barren land we call the abyss
February 9, 2008 3:28am
jeeze jeeze freaking louise...... 11 days later and another 7 pounds heavier..... holy cow. well, gotta start all over again.
got a …
January 29, 2008 11:28am
oh boogers. i am going to have a bad day. yeah i am. phooey.
January 29, 2008 9:58am
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I am not doing well. no i am …
January 26, 2008 10:28pm
yes, it is time for some poetry..... to much pain on the forums tonite.....so many lost people, so many lives in turmoil, so much pain …
January 26, 2008 7:59pm
wow. been an entire week since i wrote...where did the week go???? mostly to game playing. i waste more time waiting around for …
just wanted to say hay and thinking about you. LOTSOFLUV500SL
hey girl WHERE ARE YOU??????? i miss ya!!!!!!! hope to hear from ya soon. LOTSOFLUV500SL
{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}} and best wishes for a wonderful weekend!
{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}}} EEwww at being audited!! That must really stress one out...I hope all goes well this year!!! Good luck with the new job, I hope you enjoy it!! I miss seeing you around as well but I know being busy will certainly cut down on other things. I am going to be around a lot less come next week. Hope you are hanging in there!!
Heyyyy Candice!! So good to hear from you...I start the job next monday...can't wait....things have been ok but lots of worry and stress lately....awaiting word on a good friend from here who OD'd friday...have issues with a few others...I guess not everyone can be normal like us LOL....Please take care...I think of you often {{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}} Peace & Love ~ Rima
hi nutty buddies. i'm back. i have a new found inner strength to bless the rest of you whackos and keep in the upper reaches of my consciousness that most of us here are really not all there...so.... i'm back. you can be as nutty as you like. i don't have to participate or get caught up in your nuttiness. let's try to journey this road to sanity together.
