Jack\'s Funeral
Just found out Jack's funeral is on Saturday. I can't make it. Shit.
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THE FUNERAL HOME CALLED ME TODAY,( EXCUSS MY LANGUAGE YALL), MY ASSHOLE BROTHER DIDN'T PAY FOR MY MOMS PLOT, OR THE DIGGING OF THE GRAVE, AND HASN'T EVEN BOTHERED TO PAY ANYTHING ON MY MOM'S FUNERAL, HE INSISTED ON DOING IT ALL BY HIMSELF, SO NOW I FIND OUT MY MOM PASTED AWAY ON MARCH 30TH AND SHE IS STILL LAYING IN THE FUNERAL HOME....
HOW MUCH MORE OF THIS CAN I TAKE, MY MOM IS LAYING IN A F..CKING FUNERAL HOME ALL BY HERSELF AND ISN'T EVEN LAYED TO REST YET....
I JUST WANT TO GO DOWN THERE AND JUST BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF MY BROTHER, AND THERE NOTHING THAT I CAN DO CAUSE I DONT HAVE $4000.00 PLUS $ TO PAY FOR THE FUNERAL, AND I GUESS THERE GONA HOLD MY MOM TIL THE FUNERAL IS PAYED FOR....
I SWEAR BEFORE ALL THIS IS OVER I'M GONA LOSE MY FREAKING MIND, I CANT BELIEVE ALL THIS IS HAPPENING AND THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO, I JUST WANT TO LAY DOWN SOMEWHERE AND NEVER WAKE UP.......
I AM SOOOOOOO LOST U ALL JUST DONT KNOW....I JUST WANT TO GIVE UP AND LET GO.......
HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO GO ON, WHEN I KNOW MY MOM HASN'T........I FEEL LIKE I HAVE LET ME MOM DOWN, AND I JUST CANT LIVE WITH THAT......
I CANT TAKE KNOW MORE OF THIS, I JUST WENT IT ALL TO GO AWAY AND FOR MY MOM TO LAYED TO REST AND FINALLY AT PEACE.....
WHAT DO I DO...............
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JUST SO YALL KNOW, WE DIDN'T HAVE A GRAVE SITE FUNERAL CAUSE SHE WAS GONA BE BURIED LIKE OVER 300 MILES UPNORTH THE FOLLOWING DAY.....I THOUGHT............
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Ohhh... I am so very sorry... as if the pain of missing her so terribly much was not enough to deal with. This is just dreadful news for you to have to face. My heart breaks for you... I'm so very, very sorry. I feel like all the comforting hugs on DS would not be enough to ease your sorrow right now. Is there some grief counselling available for you? I was thinking it might be really useful to you after I read the previous entry... before I even knew you'd had this very bad news. Sorry it took a little while for me to get to your journals this week... I have been dealing with my own emotional trauma. Please know I am thinking of you... and try to take care of yourself. Gentle hugs to you... Gaye xxx
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