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TRANSLATE'S INTO...MOTHER IN HEAVEN....
I KNOW I HAVEN'T REALLY WROTE A REAL JOURNAL ENTRY IN AWHILE, I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO DEAL WITH THESE FEELING OF LOSING MY MOM, AND IT DONT SEEM TO BE WORKING, I FIND MYSELF PICKING UP THE PHONE TO CALL HER ALL THE TIME, THEN REALIZING, I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO MAKE THEM CALL'S AGAIN, I DONT SLEEP MUCH, I DONT EAT MUCH, I CRY ALLLLL THE TIME, AND NOW I'M FEELING LIKE WITH MY MOM GONE, I HAVE NOONE TO TALK TO, SHE WAS MY BEST FRIEND, I HAVE MY KIDS AND GR-KIDS, BUT IT JUST ISN'T THE SAME, I THOUGHT THAT BEING WITH THEM MORE WOULD MAKE IT BETTER, BUT ALL I DO IS THINK ABOUT WHAT MY MOM IS MISSING, SHE LOVED HER GR-KIDS AND GR-GRAN-KIDS SOOOOO MUCH,( OK I'M CRYING AGAIN).
MOST THE TIME I STAY IN BED AND JUST LAY THERE, I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO, I ALWAYS CALLED MY MOM IN THE MORNING AND IN THE EVENING, NOW THERE IS MORE THEN JUST MOM MISSING OUT OF MY LIFE, I MISSING OUT OF MY LIFE, I DONT KNOW HOW TO FIND MY WAY BACK, PRAYING GOD WILL FIND ME AND BRING ME BACK HOME SOON, DONT KNOW HOW MUCH MORE I CAN TAKE.
I KNOW ITS SELFISH TO SAY, BUT RIGHT NOW, I JUST WANT HER BACK WITH ME.
I KNOW I SHOULDN'T FEEL THIS WAY, BUT I DO, I KNOW SHE IS IN A BETTER PLACE WITHOUT PAIN, BUT SHE ISN'T WITH ME NO LONGER, AND I AM LOST BEYOND WORDS CAN DISCRIBE.
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Tears are a language God allows us to use when words won't work. Don't let people tell you to not cry....just don't forget to start back talking English to the rest of us too....
I know the pain you're feeling, and the good news is that it does get easier to get through the days...AND the nights. DO eat, though....we don't want you blowing away in a stong wind!!!
I love you, little sister....hang in there!
K
keefer
My heart is so totally pouring out to you right now! I know its is not believable right now but there will be a day when peace is restored to your heart hunny God is with you right now I know your heart is broken geez I got tears coming out of my eyes right now too. Just be good to yourself. Take things easy right now. It is OK let yourself feel those raw emotions and get them out. You have such a beautiful spirit I know you got good things coming your way. Just hang in there :) You are so loved I wish I could give a damn hug over this internet I Luv you :)
askye