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Saturday, April 19, 2008 | A Rambling story

Seems like I have at least one day a week where leaving the house is just.....impossible.....almost as if I feel that if I step out that door, I'll fall into the abyss. This isn't a complaint per se, I know lots of people have it far worse than just one day a week, and my heart goes out to them, it really does. But it's baffling. I don't like going out much as it is, but every other day I can do it and once I'm out there it's okay (until I run into the Stupid Drivers Club). I'm sitting here right now WANTING to go out but afraid. I want to go to the craft store, to Circuit City....wherever.....but just dreading it.

Oh well I may try it in a bit...

meh......

Well....I went out.....got to the store like I wanted to....but all I could think was how I couldn't wait to get back home and lock the door. How do people who REALLY suffer with this....how do they stand it? How my heart goes out to them!

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What is it exactly YOU think YOU suffer from?

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well I don't know...it's not a constant thing, more like it's cumulative. I'm not crazy about leaving the house but I do because I need to, and more days than not, once I AM out, I actually enjoy being out in the sunshine and doing my walking and so forth. It's just this every so often it's a gut fear of stepping out that door...and there's nothing concrete I can say that causes it. I do know there are people who suffer far worse with this than I do, so I guess I'm just baffled a bit.

deekay
YOU certainly are fearful of something, and it may be that what it is was experienced during your infancy when YOU were unable to properly comprehend it, and thus are just as much at a loss now. Maybe hypnotherapy could help? I have an aunt who is always frightened when her phone rings, I ask her why this is so, and she too can give no explanation other than to say that she has always experienced this problem. What is for certain in my view in both these cases is some sort of crime has been committed against YOU or in your presence whereby YOU fear for your physical well being. The best way to overcome fear is to confront it, YOU need to know what it is exactly that YOU need to confront because until YOU know what it is YOU will forever endure the stress that YOU presently experience. Good luck with it.

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