latelee's Journal

Well that lasted two more days, then the washer broke. So that makes two washers in three months. I guess I will have to just buy myself a new washer, sigh. Someday I really will have a peaceful life. GOOD NEWS, yesterday, I got the first call from Kyle in a month and half. And as the powers would have it, for no good reason the only number that would go through for him was my cell phone! The voip numbers wouldn't work nor would his girlfriends cell phone number. It was the fastest 10 minutes of my life. He says he is doing excellent, not just good but excellent! My that made my heart feel better. I just hope the real world doesn't let him down too quick after he gets out. We all know how the world has a way, one that we don't usually understand or care to understand. Non the less....43 more days and I will get to see his smiling face in person. I still don't know how I'm going to get down to his graduation yet, but I suppose that will happen. My van is running just fine, but it's scary to think about being 300 miles from home base when it decides (and it has the right to) take a break from the action, and leave me stranded. So, I really don't want to go that far with it. I need to find someone willing to drive it for a day or two and let me use theirs. Hope that happens! I finally put up the blinds in my room that have been in the box for a month, and the blinds and curtains for the living room that have been in the box for three months. That is a relief. I have also started working on the boxes that have remained in the garage since the move. I have done two, with four more to go. I plan to have a home for all that stuff by the end of the week. My ex really stabbed me in the heart yesterday....why do guys have to be so cold hearted. He hasn't been over to see the baby in two weeks, I suppose maybe a woman has altered his life, which is fine to an extent, but to push baby girl off kinda is cold hearted too. I have made my choices and now I must learn to deal with them. Right? I can't live my life for the others that I love just because I want to. There has to be a return of that love in some form, that is my personality type I guess. If there is no return, my tendancy is to close the doors and deal with my loss. Move on. As much as I hope that they may see things the way I do, they don't necessarily even see me let alone my actions or reason for my actions. "Such is life". One day I will be able to look back at all this and be amazed I have made it though. I watched a movie last night that was wonderful, a chick flick, unconditional and total love between a man and a woman. Does shit like that really exist? I have a person in that I totally feel drawn to and there is no return, but I guess in the movie years had passed before they crossed paths again and then got together. So I guess I should give the situation a few years to stabilize......LOL.....a few years. Sigh! For now I'll just look forward to a smiling face in person! Everything else is just stuff.....Well gonna go for now and everyone that cares - have a good one!  Hugs