I feel like one of the times that …
I feel like one of the times that I was repelling off of a mountain with friends, I got "stuck in time" …
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Well I've decided today that even though I have my kids around me and my brothers and sisters that since I lost my husband I am really feeling like I am living a lonely existance. I feel like I walk around all day doing absolutly nothing at all, I just can't seem to accomplish much of anything. I hate this feeling. I am so lonely all the time. I feel like I am just so full of pity for everyone, myself included. I look at my kids and my heart breaks for them they don't have a dad and that really sucks. I don't know how to make things easier for them I don't know how they are feeling they really don't say much at all. I think they are afraid I will cry so they just avoid it all together. I don't know whom I am anymore. I don't see this ever getting easier. My life will never be right again and I know this and that scares me. While I was walking the dog today I saw some little kids out playing and having fun and I thought god will I ever be happy again, If I had to answer that question right now I would have to honestly say no, I feel broke like I am half a person and the best half of myself died with my husband. I just don't know where to go from here. I miss him so much, more and more with each passing day. I just want to hold him and tell him I love him that I have always and will always love him he was my world..
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Maggie: Your life will never be the same again. You are right. But it can be good. I miss Alan all the time. It has been all of 6 months since his passing. Your feeling sorry for your kids doesn't help them. They need you!! The best of you right now. You will be happy again, only if you let yourself. Your husband ould not want to see you like this. Get on the Flylady site, follow the morning routines and live girl. As we both know life is too short and not to be wasted. BIg Hugs Marlene
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None of us will be the same but that does not mean that the rest of our lives have to be spent in shadows. I never believed it when people told me that time heals, and it is true. I still feel as though I have had my heart ripped out and I miss him so so much and I wish that this never happened. You will feel better, I promise, I just can not tell you when.
brianswife
Our lives will never be the same, how can they when we've lost the love of our lives..But, we need to carry hope with us, as we traverse the thickest of emotions, and realize that we will survive, that we will live a life that is not governed by wrenching emotion in time. We must not abandon hope. Hugs going your way...Stella
sjg
You will laugh again. Be the same, I would have to say no. But hang in there. It is early in your walk.
eileenR
look back at you best day since the shock wore off and then know that one better than that will come to you soon. the ups and downs of grief are so fatiguing when they all feel down you can feel so empty. but something does click to give you a little leg up and then you have to hold on tight. even when it happens --sorry to say it isn't an upward slide to the top--plenty more bumps to come. but know that people ahead of you swear it's true. so it must be true.
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