mrsolsenk12's Journal

Well at least my body decided to cooperate in one aspect. It didn't seem to want to get pregnant this month but at least AF decided to be punctual. My RE had told me it would take about 3 days for AF to show up after I stopped the progesterone and boom yesterday there she was! I have always heard that AF after IVF is a b!tch but it really isn't too bad yet. My RE has me going back onto the birth control for the summer and I get to start that tomorrow. She wants to keep me on it when I am not doing cycles so that I don't end up with cysts and to regulate my very irregular cycles. Thankfully, the pills don't really bother me like they do some people so I don't mind taking them. They are just another pill to my daily regimine.

Well, since we are so open with our IF troubles and our IVF, we had a lot of people to tell that the IVF didn't work, and I think we covered them all. However, it did make me feel a little better to know that so many people care. I got great responses to my posts on here from all of you ladies and from my family. My younger brother, who I talk to but not on a regular basis, called me on Thursday to find out about our IVF and then told me how sorry he was and how he really hoped the next one worked for us. I was floored because I didn't realize that he even paid any attention to those things.

I just wanted to take another opportunity to thank all of you ladies who provided your support to me during this process. I know I have said this before but I couldn't get through this without your support. All of you ladies will make GREAT mothers. For those of you who like me are still waiting for your miracle, I KNOW it will happen for us all. For those of you who are either waiting for your miracle to arrive or are holding it in your arms, you fought this fight along side of us and are equally strong in my opinion. If I have learned anything from this experience, it is that I can handle and take on a lot more than I ever thought was possible. I never thought I could handle an IVF cycle and I did it. I know now, that I can handle anything that life throws at me now and will come out on the other side stronger than I was before. Even though we all experience so much heartache and so much sadness, there is so much happiness out there for us if we just look for it and embrace it. Even though our lives tend to revolve around IF, it does not define who we are or what we will become. Do I know that my FET is going to work? No, I don't but even if it doesn't, I know that I will not let it break me. IF will NOT win against me no matter how hard it tries. I AM A STRONGER WOMAN THAN IF!