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Today is my first day of my new start its not easy to say the least. Everyday gets harder and everyday my belly gets bigger. This baby is growing faster everyday. Yet I know this my addiction still gets the best of me. Why am I like this? Where did I go? Why me? I just want my life back. It may not have been the best but its what I knew to be mine and the real me. Now I am doing everything I can in my power to beat this. Or am I? Could I be something more to get the help I need? I just don't know sometimes. I am depressed. I know I have waited my whole life for this baby but yet I can't do the right thing. NO MORE. I need to do what is right. For my unborn child. I need to give him a fair chance at having a normal life. Its hard not having anyone to talk to. I ask myself who will understand my secret. That is why I am here though I suppose. To get support from people who understand my secret the most. Day one is going to be over and I count down the hours to minutes. Guess that is all.
Ashley
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Congrats to you on the decision to get sober for your baby. My husband will be on Suboxone by Friday and I can't wait. The only reason he is not on it now is because he was on Methodone for so long that they had to detox him off of that. I don't know your pain. I won't pretend that I do. I just think it is great that you are doing something about it. You should feel good knowing that. Is there anyone to give you encouragement? I not message me anytime and I will be glad to give it to you. Be strong and take it one day at a time. Congrats on the baby by the way.
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Remember too...the power of the secret is the secret itself..it is no longer a secret...you are seeking help...get as much help as you can, go to NA meetings or even AA meetings, you will meet other recovering addicts and have someone to talk to and spend time with. This will help. I am watching my son go through this right now, and having someone to talk to that is also recovering has been a blessing to him. God bless you and give you strength
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