jackass's Journal

     Well, CHRISTMAS is over. I made it through another horrible year. But, no more. 2008 is my year to get it together and make a better life for my children and me. My heart is safely locked away. Where it needs to be right now! Yesterday was horrible. My sister in law tried to kill herself and a close friend is in the hospital. There's nothing I could do to stop it, just try to live with it, and I will. I care about those people, but I can't let it overcome me. My children need me now more than ever. Their father didn't even see them for christmas. To coked up. Very sad for him. The day is going to come when he realizes he lost the two most important things in his life, and he has no one to blame but himself. I'm putting him and all the overwhelming hurt in the past. The past is the past and I can't change it, so I'm moving on. I'm sure there're is going to be some hurt and more struggles, but it will never overcome my life again. I've wasted to much time already. I deserve to be happy and so do my children. The most important thing I've realized Is that I need to make myself happy and I don't need a man to do it for me. I love all my friends, I hope you'll always be here when I need you, cause I'll always be there when you need me.