carolinagirl's Journal

Had too much quiet time tonight after everyone else went to sleep. Too many thoughts racing through my head, and I feel sad. Sad that I let things get to this point. Sad I ever said yes to marriage when I could have guessed what I was getting into. Sometimes what's right for you is the only version of "the right thing" you should listen too. To bad I convenced myself otherwise and did what others would perceive as right.
Never in life would I have EVER imagined me divorced. Now I can't imagine how my life would end up if I don't get a divorce.
I think I finally really know that I have to start preparing to walk away from all that is comfortable and save myself before there is no more of me left to save. I'm a diffrent person now. I've never been so evil and grumpy in my life. I can't let him kill my spirit. I have to reclaim me.