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About Me

I lost my baby Nicholas November 13th, 2007, He was 7 weeks and a day old. I am a mother of 3 boys and a stepdaughter. I am missing my baby boy and trying to find peace. I do not want my Nicholas's life to mean nothing, I want to find a way to help myself while helping others through this awfulness.I still have hope that there will be something positive out of this nightmarish hell. HERE IS A POEM THAT GIVES ME STRENGTH...'A Pair of Shoes' I am wearing a pair of shoes. They are ugly shoes. Uncomfortable shoes. I hate my shoes. Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair. Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step. Yet, I continue to wear them. I get funny looks wearing these shoes. They are looks of sympathy. I can tell in others eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not theirs. They never talk about my shoes. To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable. To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them. But, once you put them on, you can never take them off. I now realize that I am not the only one who wears these shoes. There are many pairs in this world. Some woman are like me and ache daily as they try and walk in them. Some have learned how to walk in them so they don't hurt quite as much. Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think about how much they hurt. No woman deserves to wear these shoes. Yet, because of these shoes I am a stronger woman. These shoes have given me the strength to face anything. They have made me who I am. I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child. Author unknown

Interests

http://nicholas-michael-slack.gonetoosoon.org AND MY OTHER SITES This is the charity I am trying to launch www.nicholasmichaelslackfoundation.com this next site is a local support site that I launched in Dec. 07 but is taking off slowly http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/SIDSintheDsupportforMoms/