Well...I just found out that my sister who hasn't even been trying to get pregnant is pregnant. I've told her that I'm happy for her...and I am except that dosn't stop me from feeling depressed over it. I'm currently now on my 3rd month of clomid and waiting the dread of the coming of the end of my cycle within a week. my Doc. had me on 150 mg of clomid this month. No one can figure out why I'm not ovulating like I should. I just had my prgesterone checked and I'm at 11.5 I was told my levels should be 17. Christmas is almost here and I'm trying to get lost in the christmas stuff to do to get ready and such. I hate the dreaded question of " what do you want for christmas"....the only thing that I want or have ever wanted since I was 5 years old is to be a Mom. The only thing I want is to be able to get pregnant. this sucks....
I know how you feel. Why is it so easy for people to get pregnant who don;t want to get pregnant. Ever since i was a little girl i wanted to be a mom. So i know really how you feel. my cousin got pregnant three months after she had a baby and she aborted the pregnancy. i still cry just thinking about it. I could of raised that child, but because she would not be able to deal with giving her child away, she aborted it in the begining before she could get attached. I want so bad to be a mom and it just sucks seeing everyone else get pregnant when it can't happen to me.
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