Journal Entry for January 17, 2008
its almost two a.m here now, i feel like i'm back from where i'm at three months ago , .. i thought i'm ready to make nice to him... …
what can i say about me...? I have lost the "ME" i know , for three years being married to this guy, why i let that happened DOn't ask me i don't know, all i know is that IN THE NAME OF LOVE I GAVE IN... I GAVE IT ALL...Now I am back to square one , picking up the old ME hoping i can still put ME back together and move on...
its almost two a.m here now, i feel like i'm back from where i'm at three months ago , .. i thought i'm ready to make nice to him... …
today is another day to deal with!!! i longed for the day that it'll be different, pain will go away, and no more heartaches. And since this …
12/09/2007
today i woke up in the morning feeling empty. Why is this have to be so painful and he is just doing fine.
FABULOUS FRIDAY... My kids started school today... Wonderful, fabulous Friday... (Now I pray Bryan doesn't get into a fight... OHHH NOOOO, Bryan started school today.... DING, DING!!! LET THE FUN BEGIN)
You should NOT...do what you need to be doing for you! He's making his bed (or he did when I last heard from ya!) It is hard though, but keeps your wits about ya...you'll be just fine!
And I'll tell ya a little secret that you do what'cha want with, but it's not gonna help you feel any better about what's goin on if you keep a weddin picture up. It's just gonna keep puttin the beauty back in the marriage... The beginnin is almost always the best part... The broken window is not pretty anymore, and you factor in abuse & you have yourself one ugly situation... Then you keep lookin at a picture of the beauty & it seems to block all the ugly out... Hope this makes sense to you.
May this Easter season be filled with love and happiness for you and those who love you.~~~~~~ Love and Hugs, Lisa abusehurts
hang tight