Kon's Journal

Ok so now I'm in my own apartment, my girls are grown with lives of their own, my ex is well my ex, so I'm feeling lost. I went from my parents home to making a home with my own family and now I'm out in the big world all by myself. I like my apartment and after living with my oldest daughter and her family for almost 2 years it really is nice to have my own place, I'm just not sure what to do now.

I started physical therapy last week for the first time in nearly 10 years. Now that I'm on disability and medicare I can actually go to the Dr. and PT again, not to mention no longer worrying about how I'm going to pay for my meds.

I can't imagine dating again, for one thing I don't go out much so I never meet anyone. I know I miss the physical contact and can't bear the thought of never being held by a man again, but on the flip side it scares the crap out of me!

I'm feeling pretty lost and lonely right now. I need to work out a plan, otherwise the days will continue to run one into the next and I'll still be sitting here with my dog wondering why I'm all by myself. I feel like Bridget Jones!