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When I first joined I was a mess.It seems that I have found some peace here. But, as usual for me I bury things that I dont want to deal with, so its not all 'peaches and cream' so to speak, and I feel that I not only have been misleading myself but others as well. Telling everyone the all is well is NOT the truth. But most is well so I white lie about the rest, I think that is starting to bother me, and I should probably confront it.
motorcycles, travel, music, horticulture, my alone time, my hubby and my dog.
I really havent had time to write, things having been going okay. I bought my new Harley on April 19, 2008. I took it out for one ride …
It's not as if i have totally not had a smoke, 3 weeks ago i slipped and has a couple of smokes, but after i get back, i go back into non smoking …
So, i am writing to myself in general. Everything is going well....mostly. My son of course could do better if i never show up to …
I had to push Dr's to tell me what was wrong, and I am glad that I did. When I found out about depression and started to learn about it, I couldnt believe how much it sounded like me. I thought I was alone, I'v always been alone. Now I realize there may be others, and that I am truly not alone
My Dr. was reluctant to diagnose me, but, when I pushed him that I knew there was something wrong, he finally did. WHY? Is there some reason? Now I know I can get even better and have a chance at a good life, even if I spend it alone. At least I have my son and thats just fine with me, he I know will always be there.
I can remember getting terrified just entering a building that Iv never been in before. The tightness in my chest made it impossible to enter, I thought it was just me. My eye sight seems to take a little longer to adjust then most and I thought that must be it, because I couldnt see anyone I knew, or knew where I was aty first, now I know, I wish I knew then.
I was adopted, and it came out when I was older that there may of been some drinking on my mothers part. I know that as soon as she found out about me she stopped. I know this because I have a brother who's mother didnt because he has so many more problems then I ever did.
I was adopted at 6 mos. I have always thought I was alone in how I felt and thought, It didnt help that I was placed with a "brother" who was (and is) abusive. Its just too bad they didnt have all this info when I was younger, because now its too late for any changes that will actually affect my life, only make me feel better and understand myself more. I encourage all yonger people to "find and do". If I could help I would. Soo much more to tell.....
I have lower back pain and have always had problems with my hips because I was born with hip displaysia. I am hoping this site will help.
Just by going through these symptoms have I realzed that I have this syndrome. The Dr. never told me what it was he just gave me a perscription. I now realize what it is.
Years ago, I was walking my dog, when the dog decided to jerk after a squirrel. I had so much pain for a month after that, that I was forced to continue to go back to my doctor. He then told me it was a degenerative disk, after a while I was better and felt no effects for years. Well that all came back about a year ago and this doctor I have now that i dont like couldn't tell me anything (as usual) so I went to others at hospitals until I was 'reminded' that I have the disk disease.
As usual, I had to keep at my doctor to find out what was wrong with the way I felt all the time. I have been asked for years to take diabetes tests with negative results every time. I dont like the way my doc casually tells me if I bother him enough. But, what ever, as long as I can get answers from him.
I suffered for so long with painfull bleeding and excessive bleeding that only got worse as I got older. I tried the other 2 steps and then went with the hysterectomy. I think this is great and since I dont know much about the effects, nothing is bothering me. They only removed the uterus and everything else is intact. I am now 44 and I think that I am starting to go through menopause, only I'm not sure. Does this sound normal?
I was abused by my brother from the time i can remember. After my first husband and i split i got into an abusive relationship, but didnt see it coming. This guy was good, and i must of been a sucker. Much more, i was so far from home and humiliated, he got me on drugs etc. This was so long ago ( 20 yrs aprox. ) and i am not ready to relive it now on paper, so to speak, but will gladly chat and teach other the signs etc.
I was adopted, and as a adult it has become apparent to me that my birth mother drank, although I think she must have stopped at some point because I could have been much worse. My adoptive brother' mother for example did much more then mine, she must of drank more because his problems were more visible then mine and mine really didnt come out until I was in my early teens. This is why, looking back, I can understand my problems better, and hopefully deal better.
I have been smoking marijuana since I was 13 yrs old. I was warned that this was a gateway drug which I chose to ignore, but, can now see how that can ring true for most people. I use to love smoking, getting ready to smoke and everything that had to do with it. What a waste of time and energy, it is true, you do loose a part of yourself as well as your money.
This is the hardest support group for me to join. For years I was ridiculed because my son was diagnosed at a young age and I learned very quickly NOT to talk about it because everyone disagreed with what to do etc. I so wish there were support groups then like there are now. I consider myself very knowledgeable, only one thing I never considered until just recently, I have it too, all along, just before they knew what "it" was.
Husband is not unable or incapable or whatever of having sex, when I approach the subject he either gets mad or flustered because he is not used to talking openly about these kinds of things, or usually says things will get better. This has been a year or so, and I know he is in pain, from the kind of lifestyle he has lived and all the accidents, but, I struggle with why I have to have nothing, ever. Not even cuddling anymore, we seemed to have just moved on to best friends and partners.
Not only am I not having any healthy sex, I am not having any sex, My common law man, is older and has not takin care of himself, he has been in so many accidents. I do love him, we are best friends, but, since I never really had great sex my whole life, I am now at that stage where I really require it and crave it. Even before with him it was not the greatest, but I love him and my life with him.
My mother has dementia, she was diagnosed a while ago, she is in the early stages, all I want to do is be near her and help her, but her sister is doing everything in her power to make this impossible for me.
Just another woman who would like the advice of others