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About Me

Well lets see I am very far away from home. Home is where there is no traffic. LOL I have 2 children 28 and 20 boy and girl I will be a grandmother in march of 08. When i am not depressed I enjoy reading, beading, working with wire and making my own sterling silver pendants. I am not a pro but do ok. I love music of all kinds. I use to sing in Priase band at church. I am not that good just ok. I have a great husband who loves me to much. LOL would do anything to see me smile or be happy. I have become more depressed in the last few months. I dont know why or what is wrong with me but feel very numb and bla and do not enjoy the things I use to. Dang I really dont enjoy much. I try to do the best I can so my family thinks I am ok. I am 45 so maybe menopause is starting to sneak in. Well if that's it. It SUCKS. Normally when i am not down. I am pretty cheerful person I normally love people and love to help others. I am a giver and enjoy giving. Or I did. I just dont feel like myself. Update Aug13-08 I am leaving my old profile up so I never forget where I was when I first came here. very low, low self esteem, feelings of worthlessness, feelings of heavy responsibilty when it came to others. Overwelming doom. very very negative. Self hate. The good news i now know I can change these things about myself and I have begun to change in many ways. sometimes It can get me into trouble. when I am being assertive I have to be careful and think about what I say cause it could tumble out like a weed. LOL However I am doing so much better. I still have days but few and far between. I am in charge of my own happiness and my own thoughts. Change your thoughts and your coping skills can change your LIFE!!!

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