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Wednesday, May 14, 2008

I just want to start off by saying, thank you all so much for the support. I have never felt so loved. Things are going ok. My brother and SIL are at my house. It has made dealing with the fact that she is pregnant alittle more real and I needed that. I couldn't simply pretend she isn't. I went to my support group meeting last night and it went really well. Well, despite the fact that I cried for the entire first twenty minutes. Then it got better and I got to talk about a lot of issues, my brother, the crazy woman from work, my family, etc... It went really well and I felt much better. I just need to keep positive and believe that my time is coming. I know I will be a mom to babies on Earth. I do not doubt that at all. I believe in God's plan and no I don't think that He took my babies because they weren't in HIS plan.... I dont think He is mean like that. All I know is I need to relax, stay positive and enjoy the life that I am living. I haven't done for awhile and it is time. I am excited about the acupuncture tomorrow.... nervous but a little scared. My doctor did call in the zoloft yesterday but I didn't pick them up yet. I will pick them up probably tomorrow but I am not sure I am going to take them yet. I haven't made up my mind. On a different note, my brother is painting my bedroom and my nursery. I wasn't expecting to have it done until I knew what I was having but since I am not pregnant, I went with a nuetral Christopher Robin light green color. I figured it would be good for a boy or a girl. I went with a darker olive green for my bedroom. They look very similar though. Well, I gotta run. I am testing a student and I need to cheer him on to make sure he finishes in a timely manner.... yeah, right. Last time we were here for 5 hours. I hope he passes this time. Again, thank you for all the support, love and encouragement. It is so appreciated.

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I'm glad to hear you in an upbeat mood. I know you have had it so hard lately, and I really admire your strength.

wendyct
I'm glad you're feeling better. I know it's hard sometimes, but all we can do is try to be positive and believe our time is coming. Good luck with the acupuncture, it isn't bad at all.

Jen2279
Glad things are looking up for you sweet friend! I think you are really going to enjoy acupuncture. Your paint colors sound great too. I love green! Hope the rest of your week is great!

Deann3
i'm glad group went well. i'm proud of you for opening up... i love you!

MEGNEEDSABABY
i hope you enjoy the rest of the visit with them. maybe her preggieness will rub off on you! :) let us know how the accupuncture goes!

pattijo
I'm happy that you are feeling a bit better. Brothers really are good for some things :) Your brother sounds a lot like my younger brother and he seems like the type that just wants to help. It's nice to know that when things don't seem that great in life, they are the ones who can honestly make us feel the greatest!!
Let us all know how acupuncture goes tomorrow, and thanks for the update :)
*HUGS*

lylbug
I'm so glad to hear you're feeling better about everything. Keep looking for those happy little moments in life and never forget to take care of yourself!

Mel9999
I am glad that you are feeling better. THe color of the rooms sounds great...green is my favorite!!

babydream
A good cry is good for the soul! Don't ever feel bad for that. I hope the acupuncture goes well :)

mbp
I'm glad you're feeling better.

egs827
Your time is close sweet girl. I can feel it :)

chiocort1
I'm happy you feel better!

ElizVin
im happpy to hear you are doing better. i go in u/s on friday im alittle scared but staying postive.

stilltryn
I'm glad your feeling a little bit better!

HopefullySomeDay
I'm glad you are feeling better. This is such a rollercoaster!! Hopefully accupuncture will bring on AF!!

PrioleauLuv
I'm glad to hear you're feeling better about things today...I'm so sorry things have been so rough lately. I'm saying lots of prayers for you.

ErinSue
I am sending you hugs and love and I know how hard this is for you. People that have no problem getting pregnant really don't understand. One day I had a customer come in and tell me how she was preggo, what was she going to do, she couldn't handle all this and what did I think? This was one week after my first failed IVF. I cried the whole night, but I just had to remember to have faith. You have it and it will come. Are going to see Dr. Roth? That's who I went too. Let me know how it goes.

poomei03
NICE TO HEAR THAT THE SUPPORT LIFTED YOU UP AND OUT OF THE EMOTIONS THAT BRING US DOWN FROM TIME TO TIME. BIG HUGS TO YOU....

EMM18
I am so glad to hear that you are doing better ;-)
I must agree with you that God has a plan. sending prayers and hugs your way ;-)

staroftheocean
glad to hear that u r having a much better time. ur nursery sounds adorable. without a doubt i know that when the time is right u will have a little one to put in there. but ur right u need to enjoy ur life and smile. im slowly figuring that one out too! many hugs!

erin0718