jim527's Journal

Well here I go getting ready for work again.

I have had some good news, it seems a friend is getting there but still fighting, I do know she will pull through and feel human again soon.

Sun is out birds are calling clock is ticking and me dog is barking.

Car is sat there waiting for my comands, bless it, its so loyal.

So all I have to do is stretch and take a deep breath and enjoy the day.

Guys at work will take the piss but I enjoy thier careing hiss.

They're full of respect for the way I work cos they know deep down I could be a jerk.

Only got one life, a life to share with everyone I know who takes time to care.

Walking round with an open mind god only knows whats there to find.

Taking things in without any doubt if its wrong everyone knows I will shout.

Ending the day without regret knowing all my friends are still there to get.

Without my friends I wouldnt be happy and to people around very snappy.

I go home alone with a feeling of joy cos the clock is still ticking as it did as a boy.

Tomorrow will come I'll start again who cares if I do all again in the rain.

            BLESS YOU ALL WHO SHARE IN MY PAIN, JUST SO YOU KNOW ITS NEVR IN VANE

Well another working day....UPS seem to be working things out but some of my managers would do better if they were a lil more possitive.

People keep asking why I'm still in work...."cos I wanna be" the day when I have to stop will no doubt come, as it is UPS are really good to me as far as my health goes, wow a bit of a shock , only cos other companies sucked.

I'm not looking forward to stopping but I remain possitive and I just cry every now and then, trust me that feels good.

Hi all you MS'ers, Im james 43 live in the uk,

I was told I had MS in 94, but thinking about it I have had it a long time, over the years I have watched and felt the illness with great interest often thinking why me.

What I believe is, as a child I was forced to live life on my nervs as my father was an evil dad, never did I wake or go home from school without butterflys in my tummy.

Now stress as we all know inflames the nevouse system affecting the myelin sheath, i believe as a child you are still developing so if anything is different from what it should be, your immune system will not recognise it, so attacking it. Over the years I learned that emotional stress makes the MS jump up and kick ass, so I decided not to get emotionally involved with anything or anyone, was hard but it works, people call me cold and emotionless which is good because I want to be.

I'm just a guy who understands what his body needs to keep his brain happy, and what the brain needs to keep his mind happy.

Ok my legs have grown week, nothing a rowing machine can't put right.

I'm me its my MS so what I say goes, everyone who looks at me without the understanding of living with an illness that can be very unique, can understand or walk away.

Oh and red wine is so good for relaxing them tierd mucles...so cheers guys all the best