Chases 21st.
July 25, 2008 12:17am
I AM PISSED Chase turns 21 on the 29th of this month but since im only 19 I cant go out and celebrate with him. I AM PISSED that I cant go, he gets …
Goal Completed on Jul 6, 08
HungryHeidi’s Profile
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About Me
I am 19 and engaged to a great guy. I am a stay at home wife because of my depression. I love cats, I have 4 of them (in the pictures below) Benji Cami Layah and Penny. I have a lot of medical issues and its hard to deal with since I am only 19! I am half Finnish and also have Norwegian, Irish, and German in me! So...I like to drink and have a bad temper! :)
Interests
I love to read, I love Historical Fiction, but I read just about anything! I watch movies, lots of comedy! And I play with my 4 kitties a lot. I like to do crafts and write (stories, poems, anything!) I like to play X-box 360 too (I like to hang with the guys!) And of course I love to go shopping!
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Recent Activity
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HungryHeidi replied to CharlieBrown1982’s request for advice about Has anybody had side effects from Efferox XR?? in the Depression support group 7:01pm
That sounds about right. At least thats how it was for me. I had to quit the medication after about 2…
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HungryHeidi asked for advice: Working at home? in the Depression support group 2:46am
I have horrible depression and social anxiety and I CANT find any at home jobs. People always respond…
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HungryHeidi wrote a journal entry: Chases 21st. 12:17am
I AM PISSED Chase turns 21 on the 29th of this month but since im only 19 I cant go out and celebrate…
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HungryHeidi updated their status 12:14am
Hating everything…
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HungryHeidi changed their mood to Horrible 12:14am
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Lasagna
July 24, 2008 5:52pm
I think I am gonna make Lasagna tonight for dinner. I have never made it before but …
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boring day
July 24, 2008 12:45am
Had a boring day. I slept until 4 pm. LOL then Chase and I went grocery shopping. I am making dinner EVERY night so we got all the …
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still sick
July 22, 2008 5:50pm
I would put my mood at good, but I am still sick therefore it stays at yellow. I just feel run down, cant get enough sleep (even though I am sleeping …
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Flower
I can't believe you read that whole thing! lol. FLOWERS for you!!! It's the least I could do. Thanks for the comments, too. I'm hoping moving on happens quickly. Would love to meet another boy. Soon. Would LOVE to have a crush. sigh. xx
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Thanks, honey. I sooooooo appreciate that. It might take a while for me to believe it. xx
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PIZZA HUT??!!! Yummmmmmmmmmmmmm. I was gonna have pizza today but I didn't get out of bed until 12:30ppm and I don't feel that good. May go back to sleep. Yeah, with the Post Traumatic Stress Disorder I was first diagnosed in 1991/92. I am really nervous around people and I startle super easily. I have dark thoughts and even today when I was loading the dishwasher to run it (Charlotte likes it really full) and running the water and the garbage disposal I was afraid Charlotte would come in all mad at me and start to yell. And she is NOT like that at all. I was severely beaten as a child. I was really close to my Dad -- the closest in my family. He was a great guy who was compassionate and everybody just loved. He would be really nice and then TURN ON ME all of a sudden (well, after a number of drinks, but it still happened fast). My Mom would rage and scream at me (like Cinderella's step mom) and tell me that whatever I was doing I was doing wrong. I lived in a war zone. My brother recently told me that it scared him so much when my Mom and I went at it that he would go into his bedroom, shut the door and just hide. I live constantly waiting for something bad to happen: an explosion, a really bad car accident, someone to come after me and tell me what a horrible, stupid person I am. I grew up in a war zone. I am scared pretty much most of the time (if not all of the time). I keep waiting for something really really bad to happen. Cuz it did all the time when I was just a kid.
Flower
I am so happy you're such a kind and caring aunt, your nieces are blessed to have you and I hope that you guys can see more of each other! love, C
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Support Groups
Close Food Addiction
I guess I have always binged on food. my family always had fast food for dinner and now it is hard for me to find other things tasty. I have always been "overwight" sometimes more than others. But when i was in 10th grade I was at my smallest and i loved it! then my depression got worse, i didnt go to school and I quit my job and i got pregnant and lost the baby, so now i dont get as much exercise and i just seem to gain more and more weight and then i feel bad about my weight and eat more.
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI have always been depressed t has gotten so bad that I cant leave the house for too long
Treatments
- Effexor Not Working
- made me feel really sick
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- all the therapists I had made me feel worse, so I gave up on therapy
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- still take it and seems to work
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- works so far, wish i had the weight loss side effect but havent lost any yet
- Pets Working / Worked
- I have 4 cats and I could not get through a day without them! they never do me wrong and listen!
- Marijuana Working / Worked
- Makes me feel happy and forget about bad stuff, It just calms me down
Open Scoliosis
I was born with Scoliosis my mom has it and so does my sister it has gotten much worse lately
Open Self-Injury
I started to cut in high school and so far havent cut in about a year
Open Anxiety
I have relly bad social anxiety. Its hard for me to go pretty much anywhere but I am working on it and have gone places by myself and its getting better
Open Rape
my cousin raped me when i was 11 and he was 11. i am now 18 and i still have problems with sex and intimacy
Open Female Sexual Issues
I dont seem to have ANY libedo at all and it puts a strain on my relationship with my fiancee. Sex just seems gross to me.
Open Migraine Headaches
I have had migraines for awhile now but they are coming more often and not going away. If it keeps up I am going to have to go to the doctor.
Treatments
Open Mononucleosis
I had this in 10th grade and personally i had it really bad but i loved it cause I got to sleep all day and lost a bunch of weight i wouldnt mind getting it again
Treatments
- Hydrocodone Somewhat Helpful
- it took a lot of pain away but not enough!
Open Phobia
I have the worst phobia of wet wooden spoons.. I know it sounds stupid but i gag if i have to touch them or see them I am also scared to death of clowns
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
my parents emotionally abused me as a kid..they didnt pay attention to me or say they loved me and they are always drunk saying mean things
Treatments
- Leave Working / Worked
- I moved out 2 weeks after I turned 18 and now I have a good relationship with my parents! its amazing how getting away from the situation can help so much!
Open Separation Anxiety
I have really bad separation axiety from my fiance chase. I cant stand to be without him. It was to the point where I couldnt do ANYTHING without him, but now I am starting to be able to do things on my own
Open Hypothyroidism
Just found out I have it, gained 60 pounds from it and just want it to fall off
Treatments
- Synthroid Working / Worked
- Still taking it, just had my blood tested and it is right where it should be so it must be working!
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