hoops's Journal

Well, I must say that just writing out that list and getting those thoughts out in the open is enough for me to acknowledge how very irrational they are and how they would set anyone up for failure. 

Maybe tonight I will start working on some of the methods Bradshaw talks about to help clear your thoughts and replace negative shame spirals with other, more healthy things.  I'm taking my time, but I'm getting it done as best I can, if that makes sense.

Yesterday was a good day.  I picked three of my four brother's kids up and brought them to my house.  They slept over last night and I will return them early this afternoon.  My brother's wife just had a baby and I figured she would appreciate a break.  

I innitiated this.  Which is a little funny as I never even would have thought of taking my brother's kids to be helpful a year ago.  I would have been too wrapped up in my codependent friendships to think to actually ask for an opportunity do something nice for someone.  Most of the nice things I did back then just felt like obligations, but that has changed.  

I have had a wonderful time spending time with all these precious little ones.