again just rambling
long story but i will try to make it short... but umm b4 i got shot like a month or two... my bf wanted me to be the …
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haven't slept for like 3 days maybe a few cat naps that's about it. I need to retake that typing test...of course with lack of sleep we know what the out come will be. I've been trying to up my water...so a little less swelling and feel a little bit better. jsut need some good sleep!
I really need to try and get myself moving. I was afraid this would happen...I wanted to pay off my bills before we moved here,yet I wanted to move to Hawaii. It's like I have my dream...but now it is ruined because I can't live it!! so I really can't complain because it was me who wanted to move here! I have anxiety so I am also afraid when I apply for jobs...I am not a good interview. I only have been getting full-time postion offers. I know I can't work ft, I only hope that I can work pt. but I may just go for it and then maybe I can get diabilty and bring some money into the pot. I get frustrated when he says he's been working all day what did you do? It's rainy season here so I have been having some flare-ups. its like before he didn't care how much pain I was in and I had no life...just as long as I was bringing in the money. As long as the money came in he didn't care if I was sleeping most of the time so I'ed have enough energy to work. I had a sit down job, I didn't cook dinner or clean house, barely was able to do my laundry! My daughter helped cook/clean and mostly ate take-out food. So now I cook dinner at least 5 times a week, clean the house you have to do alot of sweeping out here. so this is like a job to me, more physical than my paying job was. but he doesn't see any green coming in. he considers this is what I am suppose to be doing anyways. I know he is probably stressed about less income, that's all he has to say instead of making me feel like a usless piece if a humanbeing. being nothing...I hate it when people say you are so forunate to be married to him, he is so helpful.. blablablablabla...I want to say live with him. anyways I will keep searching for a job. I am going to try and email Dr. Oz for help!!!
I really need to try and get myself moving. I was afraid this would happen...I wanted to pay off my bills before we moved here,yet I wanted to move to Hawaii. It's like I have my dream...but now it is ruined because I can't live it!! so I really can't complain because it was me who wanted to move here! I have anxiety so I am also afraid when I apply for jobs...I am not a good interview. I only have been getting full-time postion offers. I know I can't work ft, I only hope that I can work pt. but I may just go for it and then maybe I can get diabilty and bring some money into the pot. I get frustrated when he says he's been working all day what did you do? It's rainy season here so I have been having some flare-ups. its like before he didn't care how much pain I was in and I had no life...just as long as I was bringing in the money. As long as the money came in he didn't care if I was sleeping most of the time so I'ed have enough energy to work. I had a sit down job, I didn't cook dinner or clean house, barely was able to do my laundry! My daughter helped cook/clean and mostly ate take-out food. So now I cook dinner at least 5 times a week, clean the house you have to do alot of sweeping out here. so this is like a job to me, more physical than my paying job was. but he doesn't see any green coming in. he considers this is what I am suppose to be doing anyways. I know he is probably stressed about less income, that's all he has to say instead of making me feel like a usless piece if a humanbeing. being nothing...I hate it when people say you are so forunate to be married to him, he is so helpful.. blablablablabla...I want to say live with him. anyways I will keep searching for a job. I am going to try and email Dr. Oz for help!!!You might also like ...
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