I am with the greatest man in the world and he knows about my bipolar. He wants to help me get it stabilized!!!Its been a long road and I am still struggling with a lot. The haven't found my medium yet. I noticed it isn't as bad now that I am with Tony and our 4 kids. I admit I went off my meds thinking I wasn't bipolar again, and I was doing good for awhile but then stuff started happening and I started thinking people were cheating on me and taking things, then I started blacking out, and crying hysterically so I called my psychiatrist. They wanted to admit me but I couldn't. 4 kids and a man that works. Couldn't do it so they put me on lithium and neorontin. I'm hoping this will be the key because even though my boyfriend says he wants to be there I don't know how much a human can actually take. I love him so much it hurts. It might be because he treats me like a goddess or the way he smiles or the way he accepts my kids as his own or maybe the fact that we can both go to the races and have the most enjoyable day of our lives. I don't want my stupid disorder to mess it up so I am working really hard this time to stay on it.