shtiya's Journal

I started a group on here, yesterday, called Christian Strength. So far three people have shown up and they've had some pretty interesting topics to discuss. :) I hope I didn't make anyone mad yesterday, when I sent out the invitations for the group. Like I had said, I wasn't trying to push religion on anyone. I was just giving them the chance to come to the group, if they wanted. So far, I've got one return that said something to the tune of, "No thanks. I'm atheist." At least they responded in a polite way. :) I'm kind of new to the Christian life, myself. I was always kind of scared to go to church because of the social phobia and all that. I think maybe, deep down inside, when I was a small child, I believed that if I went to church all the time, I would end up dying like my father had. We went to church a lot with him. We're Baptist, so the preachers at the church we would go to would get to preaching and start hollering and it would scare me (of course). I just wanted to stay home all the time, when I was a kid. There was no one to bother me at home. I could be myself. I'm glad I got over all that junk. Well, tomorrow is my birthday. 27 whole years I've been here. I always wondered what I would be like when I was near 30. Except for being overweight and my mental health, I can say I'm pretty well pleased how things turned out. Oh! Guess what I get to do for my birthday, tomorrow morning? I get to go to the health dept. to get blood tests that my psychiatrist ordered for me. He wants to see the level of the meds in my blood. The lady at the health dept. said I had to have my sugar and cholestrol checked, too! I don't get that. Can you imagine though? Having to have a blood test the morning of your birthday? Yuck! I want something really good for my birthday. Now more than ever. I'm just kidding. I'm not really that childish. I just try to say things that will make people laugh, to lighten their moods. I think I'm running out of things to say, though. After I got through planting some stuff in my garden, I was starting to worry that maybe there wouldn't be enough rain for it. Now I'm starting to wonder if maybe there'll be too much rain. It hasn't been raining in buckets here. It's just rained a little every once in a while. Enough to keep things moist. My mother in laws potatoes, corn and beans are coming up. She planted hers before I planted mine though. The roses, wild and the ones we planted, are in bloom here. The whole yard smells sweet! Pretty soon, the honeysuckles will bloom and that is one of my favorite fragrances!