I'm a bum
July 16, 2008 11:42pm
I've taken a few days off for myself. I was doing alright until yesterday. I had some problems w/ the boyfriend. My mood changes drastically when …
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About Me
I am seeking wholeness. I have spent many years with depression, anxiety, digestive difficulties, as well as many other physical symptoms. I follow the body ecology diet loosely, I see a network care practitioner and practice somatic respiratory integration, and I see a clinical nutritionist.It's been a lot of work and very expensive. I am a compulsive and emotional overeater/food addict. I've struggled on and off w/ bingeing and making poor food choices. I'm beginning to heal myself from past emotional trauma. Its very exciting. DS friends have been very comforting to me. P.S. I'm not into chain letters.
Interests
Tough question. I would like to focus on joy, but am caught up in suffering. I love my boy friend, nephews, and family. I like music, art, dance, literature, writing, nature, animals, plants, children, meditation, yoga, fashion, design, and cooking. I'm fairly boring. Spend most of my time working. My current obsession is controlling my IBS and other negative symptoms. Food has been my friend and sometimes my enemy lately.
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Recent Activity
July 16
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bellyvoid gave missfortune a Hug 11:51pm
Sorry that you're not feeling well. I find journaling helps. I'm here for you if you want; although I…
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bellyvoid wrote a journal entry updating 2 goals 11:42pm
I've taken a few days off for myself. I was doing alright until yesterday. I had some problems w/…
July 10
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bellyvoid gave toria53 a Hug 10:59pm
Thanks for your comments. Take care.- Jess…
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bellyvoid gave Loved1 a Hug 10:57pm
Thanks for your comments. Take care.- Jess…
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bellyvoid wrote a journal entry updating 2 goals 10:54pm
Quickly dropping in. Break up aftershocks have begun. I've lost my appetite, and I'm nauseous…
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HI
July 10, 2008 10:54pm
Quickly dropping in. Break up aftershocks have begun. I've lost my appetite, and I'm nauseous most of the time. Taking care of myself and …
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I need to go to bed!
July 2, 2008 11:24pm
I've been fighting all night to go to bed. I enjoy DS, but have a hard time stopping for a quick visit. I think when I need sleep the most; I …
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Update
July 1, 2008 8:23pm
I'm going to try to be brief, but I needed to shout this out. Then, I'm going to get some much needed sleep.
I went to the nutritionist …
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Chaos
June 21, 2008 6:30pm
I'm going through a lot lately. My digestive disturbances revolve around my menstrual cycle. It seems to be getting worse month after month. …
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Hi Jess, Hope you're well. Here's another book suggestion for you. It's called "Mindful Recovery" A Spiritual Path to Healing from Addiction by Thomas And Beverly Bien. I got it from the library a few days ago, and it has been helping me. Take care, Christopher
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Hug of support and gratitude you're here and sharing.
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MORE HUGS AND HUGS AND HUGS AND HUGS in case I dont get the chance
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Hi, Here's a hug for ya'. I read your journal. Sounds like you're going through a bunch. Take care, Christopher
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I am in OA and it's One Day at a time sometimes I do one minute remembering the disease can kill.I do phone meeting as can't get to face to face it has helped me to lose 8 pounds in6weeks,slow is the best.
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Eating Disorders
compulsive overeater, IBS, depression, anxiety
Treatments
- Levsin Not Working
- dizziness constipation slows bowels too much
- Outpatient Treatment Program Not Working
- too smart for cookie cutter therapy- too broke for better options
- Overeaters Anonymous (OA) Somewhat Helpful
- went to a meeting-it was helpful to learn that other people were having very similar struggles as myself and they were learning how to deal w/ their problems-I felt calm for awhile after the meeting
- Paxil Not Working
- no benefits, fatigue, dizziness, floaters, bitchy
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- not helpful
- Serzone Not Working
- no benefits lots side effects
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- boyfriend has helped alot, even when he didn't know it
- Xanax Not Working
- no benefits very bad to mix w other
- Zoloft Not Working
- no benefits, lots side effects
Close Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS)
IBS for over 17 years
Treatments
- Acidophilus Working / Worked
- not w/o other dietary changes
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
- avoiding sugar,refined foods, overeating, and imprpoer food combining
- Chamomile Working / Worked
- Traditional Medicinals really good- steep w/ lid on 5 min
- Colace Not Working
- not helpful
- Flax Working / Worked
- try tea ground sprinkle seeds on food crackers
- High Fiber Diet Working / Worked
- works when in conjunction w/ other dietary changes
- Imodium Not Working
- not helpful, more cramping
- Levsin Not Working
- dizziness, dryness, constipation, cramping, slows bowels too much
- Peppermint Somewhat Helpful
- soothing, no dramatic results
- Probiotics Working / Worked
- take before bed try as many different types as possible
- Psyllium Not Working
- gross, gas, no dramatic results
Open Financial Challenges
didn't get a degree- racked up big student loan- no qualifications for better job- can't afford food and supplements for health- working too much and sleep deprived- borrowing from boyfriend to keep credit good
Treatments
- Budgeting Not Working
- nothing to budget anymore
- Cut Up Credit Cards Somewhat Helpful
- ordered another card
- Earn Money Working / Worked
- pay is not enough
Open Depression
depression, anxiety all my life
Treatments
- Elavil Not Working
- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
- Paxil Not Working
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- boyfriend only help
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- Zoloft Not Working
Open Stress Management
depression, anxiety,IBS many years- "obsessive compulsive personality disorder","social anxiety disorder", generalized anxiety disorder"
Treatments
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- Patience Somewhat Helpful
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- very important- I get real moody w/o exercise
Open Nutrition
IBS 17 yrs., emotional/compulsive eater, probably candida- I am on the body ecology diet and have enjoyed amazing success. This diet is still quite a challenge. I tried so hard I believe I've exacerbated? my food obsession. Now I'm backsliding and the symptoms are returning.
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
- works great
- Blood Type Diet Working / Worked
- very helpful
Open Food Allergies
Type of allergy: Other FoodsIBS 17 yrs- food intolerances include dairy, wheat, corn, tomatoes. sugar, soy, peanuts, beef
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
Open Menopause
I have had extremely disrupted periods (followed by extended bouts of severe IBS, GERD, and/or stomach acid) for the past year. For 6 mos. I have had amemorrhea or phantom periods. The last 3 mos. my period has returned, but its getting weaker now that I lost too much body fat. I also get hot flashes. The doc says this is because my adrenals are overworked. He also says I have an estrogen toxicity. I am aware that I am not truely menopausal.
Treatments
- Walking Somewhat Helpful
Open Codependency
sexual abuse and emotional abuse; grew up w/ depressed, chronically ill, and alcoholic young "single" mother. Most adults around me growing up were addicted to drugs and alcohol.
Open Food Addiction
I do a combination of binging and grazing. Cannot make myself vomit.I consider that a blessing.
Treatments
- Overeaters Anonymous (OA) Working / Worked
- Helping. I like it alot.
Open Sexual Abuse
I was young. It wasn't serious, I guess. He was my stepfather. I am wanting to forgive him; so I can connect w/ these emotions, and then release them. It is not so easy for me.
Treatments
- Art Too Soon to Tell
- Music Too Soon to Tell
- \"The Courage To Heal\" Too Soon to Tell
- Checked out of library. Have not opened yet. I'm so busy reading about other ways to heal.
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