bobbi507's Journal

too angry and depressed to write, i cannot move on. my dad dying was a huge blow. it feels like someone shot me in the heart and i hate everything now. feels like my life is over. i got some Alli coming in the mail.....i do not want to be fat. i carved my ex boyfriends name off of my arm.....he makes me sick i dont want his name on no tattoo on my arm..that physical pain stopped the emotional pain for 2 minutes i think

my bi-polar is getting real bad, all i want to do is smash things. i need to leave my husband so he can move on to a better life. i am stifling him, the agrophobia, mania, deprssion, PTSD, and fibro are my problems not his.i need to just take the kids and live without anyone else, and then when they grow up, stay alone....only way to find peace.