bobbi507's Journal

I am just beside myself and do not know what to do. I had a bunch of shots in my face and neck, i got a slip from the doctor to get 2 days off of work and they had a fit when i called in. Asked if i was really that unwell that i could not come in because the vice president or some jerk was going to be there tomorrow. Made me feel like shit. Now i have to go in tomorrow in all this pain. I am so sick of it there. I am so sick of everyone. My mom said i was a hypochondriac today, i am alone, i just want to hang myself or shoot myself. I do not know what i keep going on for. its already late. i will never get any sleep, there is no one to talk to. i hope i get in a car wreck on the way to work tomorrow, then my husband can take my doctors slip into jc penney and sue them bastards for making me drive there on pain medication and one eye all fucked up and pain....then at least i am good for something. i am worth more dead than alive. i cannot even work. i hate myself. i wish someone would just shoot me and put me out of all this pain. my own parents do not even care. i dont give a shit if i am feeling sorry for myself either. i have been fighting my whole life for everything and i keep losing.