bobbi507's Journal

I am so lonely. I am just disgusted with my life right now. I took 2 Klonopin and it is doing nothing to get rid of that knot in my stomach. Its always raining here, i wish i could move away. There is just nothing but trouble around here all the time. Always a problem and i am so tired of it. Why can't i be cut a break. Just one. i dont care how big or how small. I have no friends, the phone NEVER rings. My brother ignores me when i try to IM him. I am sick of being prescribed all these pills that make me sick and never work, no matter how long i take them they do not work. I went to counseling for over 10 years and it did nothing, and i tried so hard, i did everything they said but still nothing. This depression will not lift. I had hope in one promising treatment but insurance turned it down 4 times, a judge turned it down. what am i suppose to do? I am tired of the black eyes i see every day from crying day in and day out.