bobbi507's Journal

Oh I am so bored....sometimes i wish i would not haven given up drinking, life was sometimes more interesting then....but oh well. Do what  u gotta do. Eventually i will figure out how to not feel bored without being impaired.  Dont know if it is the BPD or ADD causing this bland feeling. The ADD make it hard for me to concentrate. I really hate TV. Gotta work on my stinking credit cards tonight. I got 3-4 paid off and consolidating two more. Thank god i can get rid of those bastards....those damn things are a curse. They really get a person with BP in trouble....

Damn i do not want to sit here tonight....i get so sick of sitting here, the old man drives me crazy.He started this crap 3 years ago and it never ends. I wish there was someplace to go. I am so pissed at him for running up a damn tax bill like he did. Ohh i am so mad, it gives me a headache just thinking about it, amongst other things. Iam having a hell of a time losing weight. I got some Alli here, it is hard to not eat when there is so much stress. I should go join one of those senior citizen exercise classes, hahaha.  Drink prune juice and play bingo. I need to get this crap hole cleaned up too, before I try doing anything else, otherwise i get overwhelmed and have the manic garbage kick in.