stormylife13's Journal

I dont really have anything to say but I am trying to keep my self buisy so I am going to ramble for a little bit...sound good?

The same thoughts go through my head and I repeat them over and over on here but what am I doing about the way I feel or how I act.

 When I think about my life I really dont think about all this shit that has happened.

I think about the times I couldnt control my anger and all the times I had to drag that blade across my arm to get out of this hell for just a few seconds.

 All the times I wanted to die so badly that I just let myself go so I didnt have to feel the pain anymore.

The day were my dads face turned black, his eyes red, and beat me till I couldnt fight back.

Nights spent crying my self to sleep.

Days doing drugs to try and fit in and become someone else.

Week after week hiding what was really going on...never showing just how badly I needed someone.

 The every day struggle to keep my self sane....I never quite figured out how to.

This person who is typing this right now is not me....it is what I have become.