KAnne1989's Journal

Chad just let me go. We were discussing the fact Idk if I'll ever want to have children with so many physical problems that seem to be linked to genetics in some way. (diabetes/breast cancer runs in family, depression, GAD, fms, etc.) He brought up adoption - again. I don't know I could ever do that.

I respect those who can, but Idk if I ever could. For one, it takes so long, and for another....I just...I don't think I could raise and love someone else's child the same way I could my own. No offense to ANYONE; like I said, I highly admire those who can. I just don't think I am one of them.

His main dream is to have a family. I don't know if I can ever give him that. He ran from it; saying he needed some sleep and we would talk tomorrow. What else was I to do but to say,"okay" and let him go...?

So now I have all night to wonder on this. I know whenever things like this happen...I won't be sleeping tonight. The emotions are too high and he didn't want to talk about it...so...so much for sleep tonight,hm? (sigh)