michellerobin's Journal

well, I deceided to write this morning, tuesday the 22nd of july

because, I don't know what kind of mood, I am going to be in..

tomorrow, would of been my mother-in-law's b'day... and it is also 8 months

that her son, my beloved husband (steve) is gone...

boy... it still flares up...

well... I had a good week-end... well.... sort of... didn't do much... the heat

has been bad...  i met another guy... but sweetie... you must of given

me a sign... he wasn't for me...  but you are sending me a sign...

because my gutt is telling me something... and my heart is going crazy...

i think after what erby did for me, helping me out, with one of your guns...

it showed something to you.... that you trusted him.... for me...

well baby... i'm seeing him again this week-end... but i'd rather have YOU!!!!

GOD D..... it.....BABY... WHY!!!!!! did you do this to yourself..... why did you drink that damn bottle of whiskey... when the doctor told you, it would KILL YOU!!!!!

SUNDAY... i went to the movies, by MYSELF... i can't beleive it.. this is the 2nd time now, that I have done this.. I went to see "mamma mia".... baby.... it was awesome...  but it would of been better, if you were there... you were probably there watching over me... to make sure, i was safe.

and the weirest thing baby.... you know, how you don't like the neighbor next door... well, he became friendly to me on sunday... and he didn't even know you left me... well... i am not interested in him at all.. he scares me...   but he was trying to be nice...

well baby.... your pookey loves you... always   "forever -together".....

 that is our saying.....  which is on your head stone... 

it was a rough b'day  sweetheart.. without having you there.... was different...

but "erby" did make my morning... and called  me... to wish me happy b'day...

even my friends here, on DS... sent me wishes... which was soo sweet & caring..

I have met so many caring friends... but I wish, everyone was closer...

hugs to you...... love you.... your pookey....