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This morning, when I opened up the garage door, it was dark, the moon
was covered with clouds, trying to come out & shine, but you were there,
the "star"... you sparkled, and I new it was you.
this morning... I have been feeling soooo strange and different... in a
silly way, maybe....
I had a very interesting week-end...
I went with my son, to a junk yard, and we finally found a motor for his
project car... went shopping at good ole wally world (walmart)...
and then I met "gary" again, from last week-end. I met him at Starbucks....
I had a nice coffee break.... then on the way home, I made another stop
off at the cementary, and visited my "steve"....
I mentioned that on Monday, I sent "randy" a e-mail, of "goodbye-move on".....
and then on Friday morning, I got a message from him.... well, Saturday nite,
guess who pop's in... goodole "randy".... I can't understand, how can someone
love someone... and it's been over 4 months.... I've changed inside....
I don't feel the same for him.... I can't understand him, but I am learning more & more
of his actions, of the comments he say's...
DON'T WORRY.... i'm not interested in him at all.....
but now.... there is another new guy.. "chuck"... we sent e-mail's this week-end...
he texted me saturday, while I was at the movies....
I called him later after I got home, and we talked, and talked for over an hour on the phone...
it was awesome...i felt like a teenage again...lol
i sent him a tku last nite, and then this morning, he sent me an e-mail:
Michelle,
I just wanted to drop you a note and say that I truly enjoyed talking with you today.
It is nice to run into someone who is real and has experienced life, but at the same
time still wants to enjoy life.
Hope you have a good evening.
Look forward to talking to you soon and ........meeting you too.
Take care.
Chuck
for the first time.... I think i have a real sweet guy.. and then this morning,
he sends me a text... saying "goodmorning"...
maybe this is real......
only time will tell...
oh, I went to see Beverly Hills Chihuahua... what a cute movie..... but I do love
my girls....
then... I made a mistake on friday nite... but I needed to get it off my chest, and realized something after I made the call.
I called "erby" on friday nite, just to wish him Happy new year... and we actually had a very nice talk, he was actually happy to hear my voice... and I can tell in his tone... he was so down, and i hate when my gutt tells me, but this guy, really does care for me...
I still have feelings for him... which is scarey.... its just he is sooo stressed from work,
and other issues....
but you know what.. only time will tell, what will happen in my life...
i wish god would send me a sign, or a hint....
oh, but then again... who knows....
at this present time... for the first time... I am being soooo cautious of these men...
hugs.....
Comments
I wanted to thank all of you wonderful supporters who commented on my journal on monday....
the story of as michelle's love life changes.... or goes on.....lol...
well, the story ended on monday, that I had sent Randy an e-mail monday
morning, pretty much telling him GOODBYE... I'm DONE!!!
before you read on... please make sure, you are all sitting down... and have gone
to the bathroom... I don't want any replies, that you had an accident..LMAO...
WELL.. THIS MORNING... I TURNED ON MY COMPUTER... AND WHAT TO MY EYES
DID I SEE.... A MESSAGE FROM GUESS WHO???? AAAAAAAAA
YOU GOT IT.. "RANDY"...
9:38:12 PM: You,know that i do love you and you really made me mad, I thought
we could talk. You had to work And I thought we understand each other I
am sorry really. I love you to death..I did not want to make you mad at me.,I
was just mad you did not want to talk to me.
9:45:00 PM: I, am sorry that i called you to night Just wanted to talk to some one
sorry my best friend died to night and needed a hug. sorry
well...... my friends... I pretty much laughed at this message...
this morning, when I went out side, to go into my truck... I looked up to the sky
and saw stars shinning, and there was my sparkling star..... my Steve..
telling me... he loves me... and he was proud of me... and he is watching over
me...
I am meeting a guy tonight... and I might be seeing Gary again tomorrow (saturday)...
otherwise... I think, it is going to be "me" time... and I might go to the movies
this week-end.. I want to see the Disney flick.. Beverly Hills Chihuahua..
it looks sooo funny.. and as a dog lover... I will probably need to wear my
depends....
hugs to everyone.. and have a great week-end...
love you all
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My dearest Steve,
I know you are probably laughing at me... and saying... my girl
is way too good.... but don't worry, I am being cautious...
and I know you want me to be happy again..
but baby... you are my "angel"... I love you, and always will.
One day, we will be together..
love your pookey
Comments
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You're an inspiration to me that I'll meet someone one day. So far the 2 I've "seen" once was just that. I'm finding it interesting seeing the guys "out there". Have fun, hugs
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No kidding Auto, there is hope :) Hard to know where our lives will be in a year but nice to know perhaps we wont be alone isnt it? Hugs to all.
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YOUR LIFE CONTINUES TO BE INTERESTING...ESPECIALLY THE DATING GAME SIDE. I AM SURE GLAD IT'S YOU OUT THERE FISHING THE GREAT OCEAN FOR A WONDERFUL COMPANION. I DON'T KNOW IF I COULD DO THE DATING GAME AGAIN. AS YOU KNOW, IT'S HARD TO FIND SOMEONE THAT EVEN COMES CLOSE TO MEASURING UP WITH THE LOVE OF OUR LIVES, FOR YOU, STEVE. I CAN'T EVEN IMAGINE MY LIFE WITHOUT MY ROCK, MICHAEL. HAPPY FISHING, DEBBIE
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Goal Updated
Thanks for the update. Glad to hear you are being cautious. I had a nice short chat with my neigbor friend and it really lifted me up to talk in person instead of email. I really miss the easy conversation. Who knows as you say where our lives are going, it's all one day at a time. Hugs, Cindy
Autopilot
You and Erby again...who knows...anything is possible. Keep us posted.... Whatever makes you happy my friend. Hugs!!!
MRSMILL
Hey girl I think that is good advice for all of us being cautious, life is soooo hard sometimes you wonder what you have done to cause all of this. Then something happens (for you like Chuck) and life seems to really feel good again. Take it easy girl and hang in there. Hugs.......Love ya girl
Jane
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