MandaDawn68's Journal

Really bad day today.  Yesterday was great...Things were nice and easy and since the day has started things have just went to hell.  Noone knows what's in my mind and noone wants to know.  I feel all alone in a full house.  Noone here knows the pain I feel or the pain I would go through everyday just to have the one thing I've always prayed for.  I need someone to be there for me right now and the one person who should be isn't .  He has no idea what I'm going through and yea he's in it with me but he will never understand.  Everytime I start talking he's afraid it'll lead to something else and he don't want to talk about it!!!!  WTF!  Any time he needs someone to talk to I am always there for him but when I need him he don't want to talk about it.  THAT'S FINE I won't be around anymore.  I am so tired of going at this alone.  I've always said I was bent, not broken.  But I have finally snaped.  I'm broken and nothing will ever be able to fix me back the way I use to be.  I'm cold and bitter and a total bitch..Why shouldn't I be?!?!  Oh well.  I'M OUT!