ErnestE's Journal

       Good morning, It is 1:06 A.M. Yesterday was beyond AWESOME. I will not go into here, as it is in the day before's journal.. Good night for now... It's 8:26 A.M. I, needless to say, didn't sleep much last night, but it has DONE NOTHING to my mood. PRAISE!! GOD!!! Until last night I never realized HOW MUCH HATE can weigh. I carried that worthless filth for almost twenty-seven years, but now I am FREE!! I left it on a pew at Liberty Freewill Baptist church last night. Even though it has only been about twelve hours or so. I can truly say, my peace is now complete. The Sun is shining and the temperature is coming up nicely outside. The Iris festival is in town today, so I will probably spend part of the day there. Other than that I will most likely this will be a rest day for me. Even though I FEEL WONDERFUL, this old shell is tired and needs rest. This will be perfect day for Bible study, prayer, and quite reverence to God. So that is what a I shall do today. More later.. Well I haven't been as diligent as I would have liked, but I have been studying. Slowly working on a message that I hope to be able to bring on God's timetable, not mine or the world's. Through prayer, the leadership of the Holy Spirit, my many brothers, sisters, DS friends, and the for one special DS friend. I am learning patience, sometime not very well, but I am learning. SLOWLY one small step at a time, I am learning. THANK GOD!!! HE DIDN'T THROW THE CLAY AWAY!! Well it is coming close to time to leave for a benefit for a dear sister in Christ. I will be back later.. The benefit was a SUCCESS!! And to top off the night a soul was SAVED during the singing that followed the meal. This has been a WONDERFUL DAY!! Their is a small dark spot in my joy tonight. I believe my new blood pressure medication is causing everything to appear as though someone is smoking near by. This is not enough to bother my joyous mood, but I did promise to be open, so I am. I would like to take a moment to thank Daily Strength for being here for all of us. If it hadn't been for DS I would probably have never met so many brothers and sisters in Christ, so many friends, and that ONE SPECIAL FRIEND. It is ironic to think that what started out as search for hydrocephalus on the internet. The HORRIBLE PAIN of seeing those new borns, their heads the size of a softball and larger. The emotional pain of realising of how blessed I am to be forty years old with hyrdroclephalus and except for a few emotional problems being independant. Yet I gripe and fuss about every stupid little thing. Especially after living one of the MOST BLESSED weeks of my life. I guess I will wrap this day up now. I need to get to bed so that I can be alert for church in the morning. God bless and good night.