I'm Melanie. I'm obsessive & dependent on others. I have a eating disorder, I starve myself to make me feel pretty. I'm learning to find who I am & everything I love on my own w/o someone there doing it for me. I play guitar, write, hang out w/ friends, & try to be a strong, outgoing person. I believe there is a god and pray as often as I can. I love photography, modeling, & acting. I love to laugh. I am emotional and i dont think theres anything wrong with that even when people tell me it is. I'm aloud to have feelings and I dont like to hold too much stuff in. Sometimes i just like to keep to myself and work on my own problems alone.
I write poetry and songs, I dance in the rain, sing in the shower, play my music too loud, talk too fast, obsess over my weight, I'm a health freak and way skinny, Take a lot of pictures, once you fall in love with me its hard to let go, I get my hopes up a lot, I'm dependent, lack self confidence, push good things away in fear, smoke pot, I drink beer, want to be perfect though no one is, I love animals and wish I could take in every defensless creature, I'm a tree hugger.
ohxemxgee replied to Family1stTea’s discussion post How can anyone say that marijuana is NOT addicting in the Marijuana Addiction & Recovery support group 9:33am
the feelings you get from marajuana is very addicting. so i agree with you. but it depends how often…
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i just recently got drug tested and failed it now i have to go to court because im on probation and all…
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If I was to write a suicide letter, it would go something like this Dear loved ones and those who have…
ohxemxgee replied to ToniCB’s request for advice about I need help in trying to stop being so needy in the Healthy Relationships support group 2:03pm
have you had past relationships where you felt that they didnt like you so you kept asking them and kept…
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October 6, 2008 2:22pm
If I was to write a suicide letter, it would go something like this Dear loved ones and those who have been in my life, it has been almost 18 …
October 6, 2008 1:55pm
so today was a pretty bad day for me. it started off with something small.. being pissed at my hair.. then it resulted from a rumor that im a dirty …
October 2, 2008 10:20am
You know that Chad guy I have been talking to you guys about... well if not we are kind of dating but I'm not so sure anymore because last night he …
September 30, 2008 9:32am
UGH! it just gets harder and harder for me to let my ex christian go. i love and miss him so much.. and i feel like an asshole. He called me last …
September 29, 2008 12:50pm
So basically my heart doesn't know what to do, I don't think my mind really knows either. I'm so naive sometimes. I have hardly any trust in anyone, …
I was diagnosed with bi polar disorder and things have been really rough for me. I was getting worse and when I finally got on medication I had ruined me and my boyfriends relationship. I;m seeking help by going to relationship groups and seeing a psychiatrist. I want to get better and tryto control my manic emotions
I have a severe rage problem and have had outbursts so bad I threatened others lives. One time I got into a raging fit and only remember walking out onto the road then my boyfriend told me I had tried to choke him. After these episodes I'm left with deep regret and beat myself up for it. I ruined me and my ex's relationship because of these outbursts
I have inflicted pain on myself and a few times tryed to commit suicide but someone always stopped me.
I'm not quite anarexic but I obsess over my weight and might be suffering from malnutrition
I'm a cutter. I enjoy it. I dont know why. its just a release fo something for just a moment but it makes me feel good in an odd way. its addicting ive done it since i was 13
My doctor told me i had a small case of ADHD. thats just what she said so. i do have a very difficult time concentrating a lot. i get bored very easily and constantly moving around
me and my boyfriend got out of a long relationship. the description of this community was to work past problems and build stronger. but he pussied out and left me here to deal with all this on my own. its really hard but im trying. i still deeply love him and i wish he would of stuck around
I pretty much am a bat. My aunt gave me the nickname bat girl because I'm up all hours of the night. It's pretty frustrating because when i finally do go to bed i have no energy during the day
My dad was an alcoholic. and i need someone to help me figure out what was going through his head. He drank probably 30 beers a day on his *good* days.. and i saw him slowly killing himself with beer. he has been drinking since he was probably 14, and he stopped eating after awhile. he would here and there but not as much as he use to and rapidly started losing weight. we were having financial problems and a few family problems.. but nothing was so bad that it couldnt of been fixed. it has been a month and a day since he killed himself.. and i want to know something.. if you drink that much and you suddenly stop, what does it do to you? can it drive you mad? is that maybe why he did what he did? because had not been drinking when he killed himself, doesnt mean he was sober because all the drinking he did, he had to of had beer in his blood all the time. and when he didnt drink he'd get really sick, puking, shaking, and stuff like that. it was hard for him to not have beer. i just want to know what withdraw from beer and the emotional state he was in lead to such a tragic event?
i just recently got drug tested and failed it now i have to go to court because im on probation and all that. so i feel like a dumbass for putting myself in that situation in the first place
