Time for another journal entry …
Time for another journal entry I think! Lately things have been up and down. I've defintely had a few …
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Not much time here again!!! Mom is having a bathroom problem. Doctor just called something in so I'm off to pick it up. I never in my life thought I'd discuss pooping, the lack thereof and especially the size (oh my gosh) as much as I have over the past year. Well, I'm sure none of you want to read about poop so here are my positives.
Let's see:
1. I am healthy. I hope. Haven't had a real check up in years so I can only guess that I'm okay but that's good enough for me for now.
2. Mom's t.v. and cable is set up in her rooms now so maybe Paul and I can have a date night. It's been a long time. Tomorrow his kids come so I'm hoping tonight. If not, because Mom's not feeling good, then we'll shoot for Monday. Gotta take 'em where you can get 'em now I guess.
3. I have an amazing, loving, supportive husband who I just adore. He has been my rock since losing my Daddy and he has been as understanding and supportive as he could be. It's harder for someone who has never lost anyone to understand so I have to give him a lot of credit for making the effort. Also, he really has been so helpful with Mom. Two nights in a row now he's worked on setting up her t.v. and stuff in her room, getting her dinner, playing with her and trying to make her feel at home. He also told me yesterday that I had to be more patient. Okay, now remember, he's not here all day long so he gets a break. But, he's right. I guess that is something God is trying to teach me thru this. Patience. It was so easy with Daddy b/c he was so "easy." He never complained, etc. He was always positive. He smiled a lot even in the worst of times. It's true that opposites attract because Mom is his exact opposite. I can't say I blame her now b/c PD is such a horrible disease and it has robbed her of her life. She is starting an exercise class next week so that should be helpful for her. I have to force her to go b/c she has isolated herself socially (another PD tendency). Once she starts it I think she'll really like it. My real estate partner's friend teaches it twice a week and everyone supposedly loves her and the classes.
Anyway, I'm babbling now and I have to call the pharmacy and rush them on the scrip for Mom so I'll be back soon. The light is at the end of the tunnel regarding settling in and getting the house on the market. That better be it for a little while. I REALLY need a break. Even if it's just a couple of days of being able to stay home and do nothing. Well, I would have to finally catch up on my journal reading and hugs to my friends though. I hope you all are well and I love you and thank you for your friendship. This group has been the only support I've had (except for Paul) since losing my Dad and everything that has followed. With all of my heart, THANK YOU!
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Glad to see you have some amazing things to be thankful for. I am sending you hugs!
missdad
Glad to hear that you're getting your Mom settled in. I'm so happy for you that your husband has been so supportive.....that's wonderful! Hugs!
CherKeg
Sounds as if you're coming along well. It's so obvious, Grasshopper, that you are learning and growing from so many of life's lessons in the past several months.
Glad to hear Paul told you to be patient. It's true. I didn't want to butt in but since he said it then I feel it's okay. Besides, I hold rank on you in age and that gives me privilege. LOL.
Really though, Kim, it's your efforts and open-mindedness at growing and learning that even make me feel free to tell you such things. And IMO that means you are one great lady. No BS - I really mean that.
My thought for the day: Perhaps the reason your dad was able to be the person he was - happy, always positive, etc. was a direct result of his relationship with your mom. The perfect combo. One balanced out the other. I know that's the case in my marriage. I'm certain many in our family think I'd don't add much but I know (and my husband readily admits) that without me helping him along that he would not be able to accomplish all that he has and continues to accomplish. And visa-versa for me.
Both you and your mom have lost much. And we both know she has to be as devastated and lost without your dad as you are. I do hope you can be patient with her. I know how difficult that is - especially with all on your plate - because I've been there - done that. In addition to losing your dad, she's also lost her independence and autonomy - and her health. But then, you can take comfort by knowing that you've given her the security of now being in the loving environment of your own home. That is a selfless act. You might not believe so but I could tell you tales of how my step-sister abandoned her own mother and left her to me that would make you see what a wonderful and caring daughter you are.
I've no doubt your dad is very proud of you and all that you have accomplished. These are the life lessons that make one a wise old sage over time. Some never have nor grasp the opportunity. You, on the other hand, will one day be that wise man on the mountain.
laurikis
You are doing so well Kim. I love reading your positives. I always say... POSITIVE thoughts bring POSITIVE results. You are living proof!
GoldenLox18
Hi Kim,
Oh, poor Mom. She has certainly had her share of problems and I know she thanks God everyday she has you. You are a wonderful daughter, but you know how I feel about that.....I have told you so many times and mean it every time I tell you.
Paul sounds like he is great!!! He's a keeper! I've been blessed with one of those too......over 39 years. We're lucky gals!
You will get your date nightk soon...I can feel it coming.
Take care, sweetheart. Take care. Love, Dawn
krausehouse
Kim~you are a great person! Enriching the lives of others comes naturally to you. Thanks for keeping up with the positives and inspiring me to be happy =) God Bless,Katie
asadheart
I'm so glad you're still doing the positives. Didn't have the energy to do my today. Love ya, girlfriend! You're doing great!! Cyn
CynK
Good job keeping up with the positives! I still do them everyday, I just haven't been journaling them, because of my Jamaica stories. However, I will get back to writing them, soon! Also, I just have to tell you, POOP IS MY LIFE! I have been hearing about and playing in it for over 21 years!!! So, you can talk poop with me anytime! Love ya hon, Barbara
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