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Journal Entry for March 26, 2008 Mood

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

I feel like I am stuck in a rutt of depression lately, I try and stay positive but it is only for a short while , I really want to figure out what has been causing my depression but there are to many things that it could be I have been thu a lot in life and it seems that I take 1 step forward and 2 steps backwards ... my job has really been getting to me or some employ's I should say ... I don't care what mood I am in or whats going on in my life at the time I take pride in my work regardless if it is something I enjoy or hate people I work with try to be as lazy as possible without being hassled. Makes me angry because I have to pic up there slack....... So about this depression ..um I have never been to a Doc. or been on any Med's for it I am still considering the Military as an option for work and my buddy says that they will deniy me if they see that I have been to a shrik and am currently on meds or have been... so I don't really know what step to take and if I wanted help for my DEP.. I wouldn't even know where to start .... So to anybody that reads my journal please help if you have any info .. Thank you

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hey i duno man. i went on meds my senior year of high school. i definitly had depression- bad. well the meds just made me not give a shit about anything. and i didnt realize it until like a year later. then after that point i got real bad into drugs alcohol u know the whole deal. i finally taught myself how to surpress those feelings as best i can. that depression stuff still creeps up on me. it sucks. the big thing that has helped me was just telling myself when im having a bad day that the day will be over before i know it and tommorrow is a whole new one. then usually i wake up the next day and i feel good. theres MUCH i could talk about that maybe could help. not saying im perfect, but i know those feelings. call me.

Alyster
ahhh... we all try to get to the root of our depression... some figure it out on their own, but that takes so much time and so much pain, and if you can stick it out and really deal with it, do it. but going to see someone and getting help, not even necessarily for meds, could be so much help too. a psychologist is trained to get to roots of issues. meds can help you through really tough times, but taht's about it. i went on them at my worst, for only about 3 months, and they definitely helped me not harm myself, which i was REALLY doing, and suicidal thoughts are NOT normal, especially everyday... but truthfully being off them, and feeling feelings is so much better. they make you not care about anything. you dont' know what to feel, happy, sad, angry... and that upsets you more.

and true, the military will not take you if you seek mental help.

MissNicka