Electrochique's Journal

i want to cut so bad right now

im nearly crying because im feeling i dont know what

self loathing, anger, depression, disgust

i just want to cut my arms and my legs, my favourite places

im tired of looking at old scars. thats not who i am

i am the girl with cuts all over her arms

not the girl with scars thats seemingly recovered from her little attnetion seeking fad

its not attention seeking

and thats what people find so hard to grasp

you think if it was attention seeking i would have kept it a secret for 10 months? i tried to keep it longer but the feeling on being alone got so bad, and i didnt want to do something stupid

because i always do

i wish we were at school

so i had something to take my mind of it all

goal for the summer

get thin you fat fuck

im disgusting

i just want to cut myself and cry and kill myself

because im just a waste of space