Electrochique's Journal

i hate myself so much. people think im so self centred, but my life really does revolve around my self loathing, i dont think people realise just how much i hate myself.

yesturday had a big argument told alot that i was worthless ugly fat etc. and today i wear alot of makeup and my teacher tells me to take it off. but i cant because thats how much i hate myself i cant even look at myself without makeup on. i should have said that.

im just fat and ugly and discusting. im like a giant fucking whale, i hate everythign about myself, im just so fat and so dicusting. i look at myself and i cringe at what i see, all i see is a discusting fat ugly cow.

i just envy everyone ever because everyone is so much better than me. its got to the point when its just so hard to do anythign without realising how much i hate myself and just wanting to die. and it does sound selfish and superficial, but when you think you're ugly and fat and discusting, the real you sort of gets hidden behind this person thats just trying to to hate themselves 24/7.

you know what im thinking of? :D

hate hate hate, hate hate hate, DOUBLE hate, LOATH ENTIRLY

THE GRINCH

I LOVE IT

:)