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Wow. I officially love razorblades. I've never really used one before, I've always used knives, but seeings as I lost my good knife, I broke open a razor that I found in my room, still new and sharp and in the packet. Not only was it good to cut well, breaking it apart was really fun too! My hands are now covered in those tiny little cuts you get, and my arm bled a lot. I am SO happy :)
I wash I could talk to one of my friends. That would be nice. Ah well.
I'm really liking 2 songs atm, jack off jill - strawberry gashes, and the offspring - the kids aren't alright. Amazing :)
I wash I could talk to one of my friends. That would be nice. Ah well.
I'm really liking 2 songs atm, jack off jill - strawberry gashes, and the offspring - the kids aren't alright. Amazing :)
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I am so pissed off. I miss my old knife. It was so much better than this one, it went so much deeper. I really miss it. This knife physically won't let me go deep, I've tried sharpening it but it's so blunt. Im so fucking annoyed I miss my old knife so much.
i am not feeling good about myself right now.
not at all.
i feel disgusting.
im an idiot
maybe i should just shut up for once in my life, stop bothering everyone else.
i just want to curl up and go to sleep, and not wake up.
i wish i could live by myself for a while. sort myself out. i wouldnt buy food. i'd buy like cereal and apples.
living by myself would be nice.
just for a while.
i dont think i'll ever get a boyfriend. that i'll every do anything with a guy. i wont ever fall in love either.
i just cant stand people. and those i can stand dont want anything to do with me.
one day i'll try to kill myself and it will work. christian wont be able to stop me again. i cant ignore him for a while and he will go away and never come back and i'll be free to do what i want without anyone trying to stop me.
if he leaves i will kill myself.
firstly because there wont be anyone to stop me, and secondly because i dont think i'd be the same without him.
hey hon this is not good i think u need help and such please get to a therapist or your pdoc and such i will keep u in my prayres
lol jan
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