I\'M OFF PREDNISONE
Oh my GOONESS!!! I AM FINALLY OFF PREDNISONE!! I can't tell you how happy I am about this... it's crazy to look …
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He's been trying to act "normal" while he's home, so as to make it bearable to share the same space.
I've been working overtime to bear the load of his lackadaisical desire to be around us.
Yesterday I had a calm, honest talk with him about many things that needed to be said. But I was gentle and rational and almost trying to be inspiring - about how this was the family he had always wanted and that we were at the very beginning of our life - a beautfiul, wonderful life.
Why is he so scared of it?
Or angry at it?
I wanted to do it together, with him- my best friend, my lover, love of my life - and still believed in the vows we shared and the love we have.
I also admonished to him that I needed him to know he wanted to be with us and that I needed to still believe in his honor and integrity. Without those, I don't want him.
I asked him to consider going to a councelor with me - I've set up an apointment for next wednesday.
He said he would consider it.
He said he would take our discussion and ponder it (last evening/today) and we could talk about it when he got home today after work.
And he passed out on the couch.
It's 11 pm now and I haven't heard from him since 7 am this morning.
He's not coming home tonight. I've had no phone call and I have no idea where he is.
I guess I've gotten my answer.
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this is so sad, you trying, but it like he give you the answer you want to hear, then when hes away he back out of it, you are try everything to let him know i am here for you, we can go threw this together, i am your wife, lover,friend, i am here, i don't know what to say about him, i pray that he go get help
tiggergirl4u
Sweetheart I'm sorry. I rationalise my husband's behaviour at times like this as fear. I truly believe it might be. Wanting to believe in yourself but having this terrible addiction that you are scared you can't rid yourself of - regardless of how much you want to. Maybe I'm kidding myself? Who knows, but sometimes - most of the time - I truly believe that my husband hasn't chosen booze over me (you see he knows he can't have both anymore) - because the booze rules him, he thinks he has no choice - he doesn't believe he really can do it and so takes the 'easy way out' - if only he were sober enough to see that he's destroying his life in the process. I wonder if your husband is a little bit the same way. Scared he can't quit once and for all so rather than try, he'd rather avoid the subject and the problem and hope it disappears. I'm sorry hon, I have no answers - only not to give up - despite the frustrations, irritations, hurt, pain - the list is endless - I still don't give up - sometimes I wish I would - but we can't - how can we watch something so stupid destroy our loved one's lives - and ours in the process? Hang in there sweetheart - you have to look after yourself and the little man first, but also - hanging in there and not giving up on him could be part of that if that makes sense? Loads of love to you xxxxx
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I finally caught up with your journals, and I am so very sorry about the course of events in your life. I am with you, C needs to wake up and straighten up. I pray you two make the right decision about the course of your lives. Sending my love, Kim
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thinking about you....
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