Stephano's Journal

There is something about night that is disturbing to me.  It is the time to sleep.  Is it?  Most do.  I am a nudist.  I do not do what "most" do.  I am first, a Christian which seperates me again from most of the world so again I do not do as most.  I go through the worldly motions of going to bed but the comfort zone is reduced to 0.0.  When one lays in bed they are flat.  Side, back, tummy, all flat. Straight, fetal, semi-fetal, still flat.  The fibromyalgia and emphysema have pretty much ruled out the flat thing.  But I love my wife.  I adore her as she is a gift from God almighty and one to be cherished.  She has trouble sleeping if I am not next to her.  When she reaches for me in the night and I am not there she gets up out of her slumber and searches for me to make sure I am o.k.  She usually finds me in my chair next to the "watch the world go bye" window either looking out into the darkness or praying or both.  We embrace and I guide her back to bed and slip in next to her.  I love to feel the rhythm of her body as she breathes and when it becomes steady I slip out again to my perch.  Duke will come and put his cold nose on my leg to let me know he is there with me.  Then he shakes his head real fast and the flapping of his ears stirs the air.  I give him a quick rub and a pat.  Satisfied everything is o.k., he returns to his dog pillow and after a turn or two, flops down.  All is quiet and I hurt.  I am tired of hurting.  Pain pains me and I know this is my life.  I invite our Lord to another visit and we both look out the window into the darkness.  Neither says anything this time.  We just sit together.  Sometime later I awaken and slip back into bed next to my Princess.  Duke has moved from his pillow to his couch in the bed room.  His flapping ears are my welcome.  Snuggle time just before her alarm clock goes off at 5.  Slam dunk on that snooze button. 

I've developed a pain in my left breast that goes into my left arm pit and up the side of my neck.  It is there 24/7 and getting worse.  This has been growing for over two months now.  I'm not sure what kind of doctor to talk to about it so I guess maybe I'll just mention it to my family internist. Muslim man.  Hat, robe, beard. I love  this guy. 

I have a kidney function test on Monday.  Have to drink 36 ounces of water and then the x-ray vision guys watch to see where it goes.  That is more water than I usually drink in three days which may be one of my problems.

There is open house here today.  The public can get in free to see what the nude lifestyle is like. (As if they can tell in one day).  At first they will probably think this is a retirement community.  LOL  Probably not a good time to go out leaning over to pull weeds in my lawn.  The Duke will lay on his lounger being Regal, posing.  A born nudist, he. 

I think I will save the glazed donut till after the cheeseburger.