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so thats it..tonight im going to tell the bf how very badly i need to atleast try to get prego again. my maternal clock …

Last night (t-day) I was alone. How familiar at this stage of my life. I am not happiy with the aloneness but in a theraputic way know that this is healing for my spirit and allowing my to generate closure for all the painfilled years. None of my children called as they were with their maternal grandparents and as always in the grandparents perception I was the viewed as the profrssional care provider. It has hurt more in the past; but everyone does what they do and I as have the CHOICE how I comprehend their actions. IS it an example of parental unconditional love?
Whatever, I am ok today have a busy weekend and the reirement clock is ticking rapidly onwards. AAAAAAAAAh, there is so much to be thankful for, and just for today the heart beats strongly and joy fills my soul.
so thats it..tonight im going to tell the bf how very badly i need to atleast try to get prego again. my maternal clock …
This is my forst entry. My Dad died 10 weeks ago tday. It's not getting any easier
feeling better today, chad has been home for the week but goes away to sea on monday for 3 mths -not looking foward to …
Bless you my friend, hope that this message finds you in beter spirits
pam1959