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What can I do to take back my life? This is stupid. I know the things I need/want to do, but it seems like I remain paralyzed. It takes every ounce of strength that I have to just get out of bed and stay awake for the day. I can seem to think of things in my head but to put action to them is next to impossible. What is wrong with me? Why can't I just do.....things? Laundry, work on my room and cleansing (for lack of a better word-by which I mean getting rid of all the non essiential papers and crap that is there. Am I afraid if I have all the other aspects of my live in order that the mental illness/abuse issues will overtake me or that I will then gain power over them and that I will cease to exist. I get so frustrated. I seem to be isolating and not doing the things I need to do to be healthy, mentally, physically, spiritually. Don't know. Just know it's midnight and I need to go to bed.
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You know i can understand and relate to how you feel.
Nightime is a very hard time for me as well.thats when most of my abuse happened.
I dont have the answers either.I have to really push myself sometimes to get up and do things i need to do.be understand and gentle with yourself.it takes time to get back on track i think~
jannis
You can do this. Just one baby step at a time.Love Judy.
JudyHole
It's not stupid at all. I can soo relate to knowing the things I need/want to do or say and just getting paralyzed. I fight with that everyday. Just hoping the more I can talk to my friends, the easier it will become. Just take things one day at a time my dear friend. You know Im always here for you big sis. Weve always been there for each other through hard times and will continue to do so. Even if I dont have the answers, I have a shoulder to lean on and two ears that can listen. Love you lots, your lil sis Hugs,Hugs,Hugs and more Hugs love ya
betadog
I totally hear you on this one.
I try to surround myself with positive "vibrations", and by that I mean music, light, and thoughts/words. I write positive thoughts and affirmations down on pieces of colored paper and tape them to walls and mirrors where I will see them. I keep my windows open to sunlight and pepper dark corners with lamps. When I turn on a light I remind myself to let that light into my soul. And when my energy is really low, I play music to boost my mood. These little things help me to get moving when I would rather just lie on the couch all day long and let my house go to hell in a handbasket. :-)
danih