basteph1977's Journal

I have often wondered why god made the human mind so incredibly complicated. I also wonder who in their right mind would go into a the psyciatric proffession. I do respite care for the state and i had a little guy this weekend i must tell you about. Obviously i cant use his real name because of his age so we will call him Mark. Mark is a 10 yo boy with adhd and we are absoluty convinced he's a multiple. I seen at least three alters in the last 13 days. 'Michael' accually introduced himself to us.

"so your like me huh"

" well mark there is nobody just like you, you are your own person, but i believe you and i have the same gift".

"im Michael"

"well hi michael, my sons middle name is Michael"

"mine is spelled funny MIKAL"

"Well thats Ok. Its your name mikal,  you can spell it however you like "

"Thanks , Uh oh I gotta go now bye"

and before i had a chance to say bye back he switched and Mark was out again. They have this kid on 4 different kinds of medication. adderal straterra risperdal and zoloft. Mikal switching was as obvious as i had ever seen a switch in my life. We have it pretty much down on how to do it without the people around us knowing. Mark came back and continued the same conversation exactly at the place we were when mikal came in. Could it be mark doesnt know about the others? I dont remember not knowing about my people. They have always been there. When i found out the not everyone had people in there head was when i got confused. So what do i do here.Talk to Mark and tell him about my people and thats while it isnt 'normal' to have others in your head it is deffinatly ok. 'Normal" is however he is. We had an awesome week and a half with almost no trouble. Hes 10 we were going to have some. I am starting to feel almost a motherly feeling tward Mark. I want to take him and confort him and tell him its ok and help him meet his people. I want to do for him what noone could do for me. Is it destiny that brought him to me? Am i supposed to help him? He is such a good kid but his psyc doctor has him on sooo much medication i dont think anybody has ever met the 'real' Mark. The other two alters were only here fleetingly. Almost like they were checking me out. Making sure i was ok. One time i felt this rush of heat when he/she was in my presence. I have heard of alters being able to read people. I just never seen it. It was just the feeling of overwhelming presence. The room was suddenly crowded yet noone came nor left. I wonder if my outsiders feel like that when certain people of mine switch out? I have never accualy met another multi before, so i dont know. I know Mark well and see him often and i have suspected this for sometime. None of the others had switched in front of me until this last week tho.

You know what....? Just sitting here tonight and putting this down in print has helped me. I know what i need to do. If the alters didnt need my help for some reason then why would they reveal themselves to me so blatently. I need to talk to the others. They can tell me what he needs.

Thats why people go into this feild. To help kids like mark and mikal. Wish me luck people.

Barbara 

Boy it has been hectic this weekend. I do respite for foster kids and this weekend i had three. Add to that my own two and the husband came home for the weekend. I do have a four bedroom house but with so many even that gets crowded. Is ok tho because next weekend ill have um.......3 plus 3 plus 2 thats 8 kids. Thats 3 foster kids (boys) 2 nephews 1 neice and 2 sons.  My poor niece and I will be the only girls in the house. We may just have to start counting the dog. The husband says maybe he will stay in IA that weekend LOL. Dont blame him. I might just join him. Leave all the kids here with about 15  loafs of bread 5 or 6 gallons of milk, a gallon each of pb and j, 6 or 8 bags of cereal and lots of paper plates and bowls. My poor house LOL. Anyway im in a really good mood today. Most of the alters are thrilled with all the kids because in the confusion they can be free to switch as the neices and nephews are used to it. I have had a heavy hand in raising them most of their life. Our la familia is like that tho. Everyone is responsible for everyone else. You need a favor you start with a sister and brother before calling AAA or a babysitter. That and its free :) Mother called us earlier to ask what we were doing....Breathing. Nothing else but sitting here breathing. All the kids finnally went home mine are napping and all is quiet..........was....... i hear the baby now...so goes it