Journal Entry for May 29, 2008
May 29, 2008 12:13am
I'm so mad at myself! I'm being so stupid with Marwen. For some reason I always think he's mad at me and I get so nervous and …
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jialin
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I'm trying to be happier. Ive dealt with depression and an eating disorder for what feels like forever. Sometimes my emotions paralyze me. I feel like I have so many obstacles to overcome. Ill try and not define myself by my illnesses...I believe I am a loving and caring person who (in perhaps a cliche way) wants to make a difference.
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Journal Entry for May 23, 2008
May 23, 2008 10:40pm
I spent today in the ER =( This week has been too stressful.
I woke up with a head ache that just kept getting worse....like stabbing …
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Journal Entry for May 15, 2008
May 15, 2008 11:57pm
I got all my grades.....3.8 gpa - wish I did a little better but thats still good. I'm happy to say that my school actually sought me out …
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Journal Entry for May 13, 2008
May 13, 2008 7:59pm
There are too many horrible people in this world. People who are vultures and prey on the poor...and then after they defeat you....they offer …
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Hang in there kido I am sending you my strenght and losts of love you will make it through. I belive in you
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hey Jialin haven´t heard about u for a long time...hope everything is ok with u, take care, love Chaska
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hey hun, how are u? hugs!!
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Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI've had depression here and there for the past few years. Last year it completely paralyzed me and I havent been the same since. I dont know what to do with myself. Sometimes this is too hard to handle...
Treatments
- Celexa Not Working
- I used this for a short period of time...had an annoying side effect (a rash)...so I switched!
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- I liked the idea of this treatment....although in crisis I never seemed to use it...
- Cymbalta Working / Worked
- This med gave me some of the energy i was lacking/in need of...i stopped taking it though to reduce how many meds i take.
- Meditation Working / Worked
- I love meditation. When I can get into it, its amazing...but I think its really difficult to do for me!
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- I try!
- Prozac Not Working
- I dont think this made a difference...:/
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- My new therapist is the best. She helps me to stand up for myself...to accept things I cannot change...etc.
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- I use this now....helps me sleep well most of the time!
- Writing Considering
- I'm lazy sometimes hehehe.
Close Eating Disorders
Type: BulimiaWhen I was in 4th grade my great aunt told me "im glad you finally got some meat on your bones"...haha I was slim anyways but I went home and cried and starting counting points with weight watchers. Years later I have an eating disorder. Sometimes I just dont eat but lately its just bulimia. yahoo :/
Treatments
- Celexa Working / Worked
- Tried it once...gave me a rash.
- Dietitian Consult Somewhat Helpful
- Doesnt make much of a difference for me....so I stopped going.
- Group Therapy Working / Worked
- I liked this...depending on the discussion.
- Outpatient Treatment Program Working / Worked
- I did day programs and night programs. The night program was the best....i felt so supported.
- Prozac Not Working
- Didnt make any difference in my mood.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- My new therapist is awesome.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
My father is an alcoholic. He's been verbally abusive since I was little. He's "better" now but I cant forget what he has done in the past. I was SOOO scared living in my home. I was constantly walking on egg shells trying not to upset him...but he always found something. My house is full of broken things from him. Of course...he doesnt remember any of this - but I cant forget the absolute fear I've lived in.
Treatments
- Art Not Working
- Fun....but never did much for me.
- Forgiveness Not Working
- I cant. :(
- Leave Not Working
- My mother, sister and I have left twice...just for a few days....its just something thrown in our faces during the next brawl.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Yay for therapy.
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
My sister passed away when I was 13...it may have been suicide. I completely suppressed everything I felt about it...I think I still suppress most of it now too. After she died my father became even more abusive and drank more. He did things I'll never forget...
Treatments
- Guided Imagery Not Working
- Just made me so scared...
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- My therapist is aweeesome.
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- Helps me sleep. :)
Open Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
Well hmmm...I like things to be neat....freak out when I cant find something...my sister knows if shes going to tap me to tap me an even number of times (love her!)...my ocd makes my eating disorder worse (cant eat food unless it meets a certain standard)...but I think this could be a lot worse!
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- Like the idea...never seem to use it in a crisis though...
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- Helps me sleep. :)
Open Interfaith Relationships
My boy friend is Muslim and hence lives in an Islamic country...my family is catholic.
Open Family & Friends of Cancer Patients
My dad found out he has cancer on january 23rd...my sister who passed aways birthday....icing on the cake i guess. hes convinced hes going to die any minute.
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